Monday, May 07, 2012
I fighting a war inside my head that seems impossible to win. I just keep coming back from the M.A.S.H. unit. I thought I might have ruined my life. I am too stupid to realize I couldn't ruin my life in just a few days. I have been destroying it for years. If it all crumbles down now it is because I allowed the foundation to be ruined. I have been trying to rebuild everything from the ground up for the past 8 months. I don't know if it can be done. I am still trying.
In a very crazy twist of fate I became really good friends with someone last night. I NEEDED a friend. I just don't have any friends that I can talk to. I had to blow off some steam. My body will pay for this for a few days, and I really don't care. It was worth it. I have to focus on the future and trying to make my life better.