Monday, May 07, 2012
Well this has been a pretty hard month. Last Tuesday my dad found out he has lung cancer. He will be 65 in January and I've never seen him with as much as a cold. He started feeling week with sore muscles in Jan, went to the doctor and a series of tests were done and it's cancer.
I'm really numb, and trying so hard to be strong for both my parents. My mom had to go back to work today. She's a seasonal worker in a seafood processing plant. She didn't want to go but she has no choice as money is tight where my dad can no longer work. I promised her I would do all I can to help out with appointments and such. I went over this morning to check on him. (He's on heavy medication for pain).
We sat and talked for a bit and he cried on my shoulder. I've never seen my father cry before. I told him that everything would be OK, but I honestly don't know if that is true. I need to focus on being strong so I can carry the burden for them if that makes sense.
I'm lucky that I only work 2 days a week and am able to bring him to his treatments and be there when my mom can't. Tomorrow will be a long day at the hospital for more tests. If there is anyone reading this a little prayer would be much appreciated.