Monday, May 07, 2012
Today I am on a clear liquid diet in preparation for a combination gastroscopy & colonoscopy tomorrow afternoon. I am very nervous about having this procedure, even though I know that it is necessary to help diagnose the GI problem I have been having for the last couple of years.
This morning I was finally able to arrange a room within walking distance of the hospital (an hour's drive from home) so that I will have a place to stay after the procedure, since I am not allowed to drive due to the sedative I will be given. Having a room booked relieves some of the stress I've been experiencing, but I am still anxious about the procedure, not to mention the preparation for it starting this evening. I have to drink the 2-L jug of electrolyte laxative solution-half this evening and half tomorrow morning, and then drive for an hour to the place where I have booked a room. I can walk to the hospital from there, and after I am allowed to leave the hospital I can walk to my room to rest for the evening and stay overnight.
My main worries, now that I have the room arrangements made, are that I won't be able to drink all the solution, that even if I do manage to drink it all I won't be cleaned out enough for the test to be of any use, that I will still be in evacuation mode during the hour drive there, that there will be complications from the sedative (I'm very sensitive to anesthetics), that the procedure will be very uncomfortable physically, and that the diagnosis will be inconclusive or negative. See, I am a worrier. I am trying to relax and not worry so much but it is difficult to do.
My worry about getting the entire solution in me sounds like I am being a baby about the (no doubt) unpleasant taste of it, but that isn't it. Part of my GI problem seems to be slow emptying of my stomach. Over the course of the last few months I have gone from drinking at least ten glasses of water per day, usually more than that, with no problem, to forcing myself to sip water from time to time. I used to be filling my water bottle several times a day and drinking at least half a bottle at a time, but now I can only sip water because I am so full that it makes me nauseated to drink 8 ounces, even over half an hour's time. Last October when I had my first test regarding my abdominal distress, an ultrasound, I was sick from drinking the 4 glasses of water in the half hour preceding the test. The nausea and painful distention of my stomach was just horrible. I had one cup of chicken broth for lunch half an hour ago and my stomach is still full and hurting from that. That is why drinking the laxative solution worries me, even though worrying is counterproductive.
I am a mess right now, not looking forward to what lies ahead later this evening or tomorrow.