Monday, May 07, 2012
After feeling down for quite some time, I realized my job was getting me down, working with a very negative person. I felt poisoned and I'm tempted sometimes to get involved, but not wanting to this time. I also felt more drawn to spend time with my grandchildren on weekends, which wasn't possible with working most weekends. I think since I went and spent time with my son's little family in Hawaii, I realized that I wasn't appreciating the fact that my other kids live closer and I was missing seeing the grandkids grow up. When I did have a day off on the weekend, I was in need of time to exercise of just do stuff by myself or with hubby. But now I feel like sharing that time with them, too. By quitting, I have freed up precious time. If I search for another job, it will be daytime hours in the weekdays. Preferably part time so I still feel like i have time to myself. I don't know how people manage to work full time and not get stressed out.
For now, I am going to spend a bit of time each day working on the book I've always wanted to write about my journey in life having struggled with bipolar disorder. It's something I hope will help others in the same situation, though the most important reason to write about my life is for my own benefit. Just like the reason we should be keeping blogs...to have something to look back at and see how far we've come.
Now that I quit my job, though I have two weeks to finish up, I am not feeling so depressed while on the job. I feel relief and am counting down to the end. I will miss some people, but may keep up with them. I will miss elements of the job and I know I'll probably never find such a flexible situation. My boss always was willing to take into account days we may want off. I could even take time to go to Hawaii in the spring and go to see my parents for a week in the fall. Where in the heck will I ever find another job like that???