Sunday, May 06, 2012
Feeling frustrated and this blog is my attempt to change how harshly I can judge myself, which simply leads to a set up to eat more food than I need and reinforcing the idea that I can't succeed at my goals. I CAN SUCCEED with my goals. I want to compete in the 2017 senior olympics in the triathlon and there is every reason for me to be able to do that!
Well, I wish I could say that I was not an emotional eater and maybe I will be able to say that later on. But boy can I tell that I get downright emotional when I cut out certain comfort foods! It takes a lot of energy and strategy to counter those urges and habits years in the making. However, I am doing it!
It is hard to admit, but I am not a normal eater! I have been through the wringer these last few days as I try to change my diet. Talk about obsessed! However, I am building patience and balance. And doing all I can to change that old "diet" mentality and the attitude that food is the enemy or that it will solve some emotional vulnerability I feel!
Okay, writing that helped me turn my thinking around just a bit... More and more I am becoming sane regarding food and my health. I CAN accomplish my goals regarding body, mind, spirit. I have support from others and in fact need that support. It is okay to be vulnerable and open to support! That builds strength and security!
I am hungry and am going to go and eat! LOL