50,000-59,999 SparkPoints 51,368

My Awakening

Sunday, May 06, 2012

Today is a new day. That means new beginnings. A chance to start over and correct yesterday's mistakes. That's how I will begin each day from now on. I'll review the day before but only to see what adjustments need to be made. I will not dwell in the lows of my yesterdays. I'm not perfect nor will I ever be.
For years I've been tearing myself down trying to be something that was impossible to be- perfect. And when I would fail at the attempt, I would beat myself up terribly. During these times I found comfort in some of the worst ways imaginable. One that I'm not ashamed to mention is eating. Oh there where other ways, and maybe one day I'll discuss them.
Looking back I can see how I ended up depressed. I was a mess. If I wasn't trying to live the perfect life, I was living the story of 'The Emperor's New Clothes'. Either way, I was doomed. Now I have to live to please me. My weight loss will be for me. When I buy something, it will be based on my likes and what pleases me. When I make decisions, they will be my decisions, and if my decision ends up being a mistake. It will be my mistake. I won't beat myself up because of it. I won't dwell in it. I will assess it and make the necessary adjustments. I won't live in fear anymore because now I know perfection is not a requirement for success.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • NANT406
    Thanks for sharing. What a great epiphany. I need to remind myself of this as well. Best wishes on your journey.

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2082 days ago
  • DNJEN471
    Sounds like an excellent plan Yandi! No dwelling just moving on... And in the right direction too! Proud of you girl!!
    2083 days ago
    That is a wonderful message - and one I needed to read today especially.
    2083 days ago
    Wonderful stuff! None of us are perfect but we need to love ourselves!

    2083 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/6/2012 12:57:13 PM
    emoticon You can do it !! Have faith in yourself !!! Love yourself. Yes,do it for YOU !! You need to do it for yourself. Everything will work out. Good luck on your weight loss journey !! emoticon emoticon
    2084 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.

More Blogs by YANDI4LIFE