Sunday, May 06, 2012
Today is a new day. That means new beginnings. A chance to start over and correct yesterday's mistakes. That's how I will begin each day from now on. I'll review the day before but only to see what adjustments need to be made. I will not dwell in the lows of my yesterdays. I'm not perfect nor will I ever be.
For years I've been tearing myself down trying to be something that was impossible to be- perfect. And when I would fail at the attempt, I would beat myself up terribly. During these times I found comfort in some of the worst ways imaginable. One that I'm not ashamed to mention is eating. Oh there where other ways, and maybe one day I'll discuss them.
Looking back I can see how I ended up depressed. I was a mess. If I wasn't trying to live the perfect life, I was living the story of 'The Emperor's New Clothes'. Either way, I was doomed. Now I have to live to please me. My weight loss will be for me. When I buy something, it will be based on my likes and what pleases me. When I make decisions, they will be my decisions, and if my decision ends up being a mistake. It will be my mistake. I won't beat myself up because of it. I won't dwell in it. I will assess it and make the necessary adjustments. I won't live in fear anymore because now I know perfection is not a requirement for success.