Sunday, May 06, 2012
Gauntlet Time P. May Day. You were sick. And now with Rx's you're 'back-to-normal'. We've heard that story. So what gives? For a few months I've been waffling on every f'g subject, including my diet and exercise... and especially the way i spend my time. I felt lost without having weight loss be my "primary purpose"... and... uh... I gained some weight after mostly maintaining. Now I can ramp it up again and will. YET... Bookmark Here.... my "primary purpose" is still to be found. I'm only 53... and employment doing what I did previously seems not only elusive and unattractive but unlikely. So...? Jeepers.... Something must be done! But what? I need help here. And I don't know how to get it.
Still... Yes... I will be happy to say SUMMER 2012 --- SPARK is #1
I'm feeling so fit in my frame (albeit heavy today with bloat from a couple days of cocktails and splurging). I'm feeling different. I'm enjoying getting used to being this size. ... and yet I have already felt strongly that I want to be smaller.n
It's not that "normal people" never gain weight. Joe says he goes up and down 4 lbs all the time. For me, my recollection as a yoyo dieter is that IF/when I gain weight...that in the past meant...Oh No! It's happening (IT... an involuntary force?). Nope. THIS is Normal, P. You put on a few lbs by over indulging... and NOW we're going to CLEAN UP THE ACT and FEEL BETTER. -- Cuz... THIS IS KEY..... I feel bloated and not my best. And THIS is I CELEBRATE!!!
My instinct has evolved! I want to FEEL GOOD!
My heart and mind are not properly connected when I'm not honest with the way i feed myself. This is a gift and a curse. So.... Do the next right thing, P, EVERY DAY. EVERY DAY. EVERY DAY.