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Little Victories

Saturday, May 05, 2012

I had to run into the store to get batteries. They had easter candies and such for 75% off. I managed not to pick up any of the chocolates or marshmallow peeps or anything, but I found myself headed to the check-out with one of those decadent sugar cookies that have like 400 calories a bite, the soft ones with that melt-in-your-mouth frosting on them...

I'm standing in line holding my batteries in one hand and staring at that cookie with this sense of inevitable defeat of "I could eat just 1/4th and that'd be a good snack I could work it, but I *know* that instead I'm going to eat the entire thing in the car on the way home and feel miserable."

I was absolutely defeated by that cookie. Even knowing - KNOWING - I was going to feel miserable, I was still standing there with that cookie.

And finally I realized something. I was worth more than that. I was worth more than the misery of eating a cookie. I realized no matter how good I knew that cookie was going to taste, it wasn't going to taste good enough to make me feel better about myself when I was done.

None of those were really conscious thoughts, I wasn't standing there philosophizing to myself. But I did something I had rarely been able to do before. I set the cookie down on the soda case. I didn't even bother walking back to put it away. I just set it down right where I was and took a step forward.

I beat the cookie. I didn't buy it, I didn't eat it on the way home, and I didn't feel miserable.

It will probably be the exact same battle the next time. I might lose next time. But I won this time. And sometimes it's the little victories you really have to hold on to.
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  • v DJ1SKYWALKER
    Thank you for this blog! I am constantly having arguments with myself over why I should buy that "cookie". Usually the cookie wins :-( But, your comment "I was worth more than that. I was worth more than the misery of eating a cookie. I realized no matter how good I knew that cookie was going to taste, it wasn't going to taste good enough to make me feel better about myself when I was done." REALLY TOUCHED ME!!!
    1533 days ago
  • v HOTPINKCAMARO49
    emoticon You go, girl! emoticon
    1539 days ago
  • v CHARMIAN2
    You should be very prous of yourself!!!
    1539 days ago
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