April and May
Saturday, May 05, 2012
It's odd. I was on a rolling boulder of momentum since February. Then slowed down a bit. March 22nd was the last time I went to the gym. I kept up with my caloric tracking and stayed in range all up until about the middle to end of April. And now, the last two weeks or so I haven't tracked a thing and perhaps went a little wild with the ice cream Crunch bars last week. In spite of the Crunch bars, I've still been meaning to buy a belt for the pants that don't seem to want to stay up as much as they used to. One happy thing.
Any excuses to offer? Not really. April was a busy month work-wise. And I've been feeling somewhat depressed at the slow progress of my job hunting. I think there came a moment where I just wanted to curl into a cocoon mentally. Was it my body rebelling against me? I don't think so. I've enjoyed going to the gym. It puts me at ease knowing that my body can take certain things and I worry less about what "that ache" or "this ache" could mean. In fact I realize it means nothing and weird aches vanish altogether from my perception.
My mind can become a quagmire. And so after the initial depressed thoughts that set me off or set me back mentally, I've decided to retool this weekend. The job search will continue and I've opened myself to another choice that can move me in the direction I want my life to go. One way or another 2013 will be a spectacular new year. And I'm vowing to get back to the gym on Monday. Back to my daily morning routine and semi-regular evening class routine.
There's no reason not to. Time to get back on track. Weight loss and health is something that I was making progress on and it made me feel great that I was. So other things are not moving at the same pace. I shouldn't sacrifice this because of that.
That's my update.
I'm also taking part in BLC for 20-somethings with 100+ to lose. Don't want to let down my team either :-)