This blog is way overdue! It is a hard (and long) one to write because I have to admit my weaknesses and admit that my doctors and friends were right and I was wrong.
No, I was not addicted to drugs or liquor...I was a workoutaholic!
I took this picture literally! Yes... my addiction was to working out everyday...sometimes twice a day....sometimes 7 days a week (no rest day). I am one of those persons who felt guilty missing a workout; one of those persons who worked out for at least 60 minutes a day....30 minutes? Ha! I laugh at that! Now, I know a lot of persons on SP may be wondering so what? A lot of persons record more than 3000 minutes a month. But I am not a typical person. I have a serious back problem...I have disc degenerative disease, two torn discs, bulging disc against thecal sac and several dessicated disc cartilages. Last year, I found out how serious my condition was and since then; I have been warned that I cannot continue to work out as I used to do in 2010. I had several 'relapses' where I writhed in pain and missed several days of work because the pain was so bad. I vowed each time, I would not work out so hard again or I would take it easy the next time.
In February 2012, I started to do Insanity. Obviously, I was insane! There is a clear warning that if you have back or knee issues, don't do the workouts. In addition, I knew my two orthopedic surgeons, my general practitioner, my physiotherapist, family and friends would balk at this idea yet I started anyways. My friends in my fitness group on FB warned me everyday - please be careful and I always responded "no pain, Insanity agrees with my back!"
In March, I added Body Revolution. I started to have muscle spasms...ignored that...felt a little warning pain...ignored that. On March 17, 2012, I woke up with some pain but did Bob Harper's Ultimate Cardio Body workout because I wanted to try out my new sneakers and HRM. I used my tens unit in the night and felt fine when I woke up on Sunday morning. When I arrived at church, I could barely come out of my car. The pain just came on; no warning! To cut a long story short, I ended up in the hospital...I could not walk for two days!! The pain was so excruciating! The injections did not work...the tablets did not work...ice and heat did not work! It was never this bad. I couldn't go to the bathroom on my own, I couldn't sit up to eat, I couldn't drive myself. Wow! What a wake up call. It was a humbling week. Several life lessons. Thanks to my doctors, DBF (who took such good care of me
), friends, physiotherapist and a new addition, my chiropractor, I am now on the mend. It didn't seem possible in March but now I am walking just fine and I am having painfree days! I have gotten the go-ahead to exercise this past week but this time, I WILL NOT be going back to my obsessive behavior!
So I have learnt that I need to more than ever:
I have also learnt that I don't need a 60 minute workout!
I have to:
I can't be so hard on myself! I have done well and this setback doesn't mean I am a failure! I won't just put on 40lbs because I can't workout or I can't do 6 days a week or can't workout like 60 minutes a day. It is hard lesson but I prefer to get addicted to taking care of myself the best way more than being addicted to exercise that unfortunately, can put an end to me not being able to move much less exercise.
So lesson learnt but I won't give up! I will succeed just no crazy stuff!! Thanks to all my Spark friends that checked in and left a kind note or sparkgoodie! I appreciated it!