Saturday, May 05, 2012
I'm still depressed, but I feel like I can move again. Sometimes life just gets the best of me, and I can't function. Today I prayed and decided to trust God. No matter what the situation is. I just glanced over at my wall, and I saw many smiling faces. Most were of me. Thinking of the times when the pictures were taking, I can say the smiles were genuine. I know that problems existed during those times, but I didn't let the problems overwhelm me. I'm tired of living in the past. Most of the time when I'm down and depressed, it's because I'm dwelling on something from my past...something that I can not go back and change. I can change the pattern of behavior. One of the things that I realized is that I'm always so focused on forgiving others. I need to learn to forgive myself so that I can move on. I have made mistakes (some big and some small) and probably will make more mistakes, but I need to be able to forgive myself, learn from the mistake and move on. I guess I have a new goal to work toward. Today instead of just sitting in my room feeling sorry for myself, I'm going out with the children and pooch, and we are going to enjoy ourselves.