Trying to Maintain Tunnel Vision
Friday, May 04, 2012
Did you know that I have been trying to lose weight and get healthy for 2 years and 37 weeks? This "baby" that I'm caring in front me in the form of belly fat is getting to be a bit overdue. At least all my new grey hair is starting to prevent people from asking me when I'm due. . .
Yesterday I was encouraged because after months and months of stagnation, I've had the scale consistently move in the right direction for a whole week and a half. Today it moved back some in the wrong direction. This is extremely discouraging because time after time I've had some progress only to have it all wiped out in a couple of weeks. I do not want this to happen again.
So - I am going to maintain tunnel vision. A good glucose reading is a good glucose reading no matter what that stupid scale says. I'm going to still eat well to keep that diabetes at bay. Sixty minutes of hard but enjoyable exercise (yea Zumba!) is still good for my muscles and my heart.
My crystal ball seems to be cracked. Two years and 37 weeks of work that hasn't shown much results has taken most of the confidence out of me. So I'm going to depend on something that my mother always said that I had tons of - pure stubbornness. I am going to stay the distance. I might be able to really put my trust in the process, but I'm going to stick to it anyway.