It’s been a very good day . . . and a very bad day, all at the same time.

Yep, it happens.

I’m an emotional wreck!
Long story . . . short: EVERYONE I KNOW IS PREGNANT, EXCEPT FOR ME!!!!

Doesn’t sound logical, I know, but in my wacky little head, this is how I’m feeling.

My husband and I have been trying to have children for over 4 years, which translates into 54 (consecutive) negative pregnancy tests. We each have a child from previous relationships, so we know how it’s done and we know our respective pieces-parts work . . . apparently just not together.

It’s been a rough week of copious pregnancy announcements, by which I mean, 2. For someone having problems getting pregnant, that’s monumental, trust me! I’ve read many-a-infertility blogs and books over the last 4 years. What I am feeling is perfectly normal and natural, not that’s there’s anything perfectly normal or natural about NOT getting pregnant, but I digress . . .

I’m feeling quite raw and over emotional, however, as an emotional eater, I’ve lost my appetite. Imagine me, losing my appetite?! Instead, I go for a bike ride, go out to weed the flower bed or the garden or pick up pine cones or take a walk or dance around the house. I eat at regular intervals; I’m eating within my calorie range, healthy choices of whole grains, fresh fruits and veggies, and lean meats. I drink my 8 glasses of water each day. And I track it all here on Spark.

My body feels wonderful (just ask my husband, lol) even though I’m an emotional wreck. I’m using those raw emotions to work out instead of pig out.

It’s life changing.