Friday, May 04, 2012
Itís been a very good day . . . and a very bad day, all at the same time.
Yep, it happens.
Iím an emotional wreck!
Long story . . . short: EVERYONE I KNOW IS PREGNANT, EXCEPT FOR ME!!!!
Doesnít sound logical, I know, but in my wacky little head, this is how Iím feeling.
My husband and I have been trying to have children for over 4 years, which translates into 54 (consecutive) negative pregnancy tests. We each have a child from previous relationships, so we know how itís done and we know our respective pieces-parts work . . . apparently just not together.
Itís been a rough week of copious pregnancy announcements, by which I mean, 2. For someone having problems getting pregnant, thatís monumental, trust me! Iíve read many-a-infertility blogs and books over the last 4 years. What I am feeling is perfectly normal and natural, not thatís thereís anything perfectly normal or natural about NOT getting pregnant, but I digress . . .
Iím feeling quite raw and over emotional, however, as an emotional eater, Iíve lost my appetite. Imagine me, losing my appetite?! Instead, I go for a bike ride, go out to weed the flower bed or the garden or pick up pine cones or take a walk or dance around the house. I eat at regular intervals; Iím eating within my calorie range, healthy choices of whole grains, fresh fruits and veggies, and lean meats. I drink my 8 glasses of water each day. And I track it all here on Spark.
My body feels wonderful (just ask my husband, lol) even though Iím an emotional wreck. Iím using those raw emotions to work out instead of pig out.
Itís life changing.