Friday, May 04, 2012
Tomorrow will be Day 7 of my new healthy lifestyle. I have been doing so good this week! I have not had any junk food or candy, have been more active, and it has been somewhat easier than last time (...and the time before that..) Anyways, I like to only weigh once a week. If I do it more often, I feel like I'll get obsessive about it. So I have not even "sneaked" a peek at the scale since Day 1. Tomorrow is my 1st weigh day, and my biggest fear is that it will still read 178. I am so proud of everything I have done this past week, and I KNOW it will pay off in the long run. But dang, in the past when I work and work and don't see any results, it is devastating. That's one of the biggest things that makes me give up. I know "muscle weighs more than fat" and "don't always go by the scale, look at how your clothes fit" and all the encouraging phrases. But after being overweight for the last 20 years, I want to see those dang numbers go down!! Realistically, I am only wanting to lose about 2 lbs per week. I know how to lose weight, it just a matter of DOING it. And when I honestly work so hard at it, it kills me inside to see I have not lost any or have even gained a pound or 2. So, as excited as I am about my accomplishments this week, I'm still scared to step on the scales tomorrow. Is that weird?