Friday, May 04, 2012
I must admit, the hardest part of change for me is my attitude. I fight negativity constantly, but sometimes it just overwhelms me. I am trying so hard to be positive and stay positive. I am giving myself little inner pep talks, and trying to replace the negative self talk with positive self talk. I am going to have to google some more ways of getting and staying positive. There are so many barriers for me to overcome when it comes to negativity. For starters, I have 3 kids-6 yr old boy, 4 yr old boy, 2 year old girl. I'm a stay at home mom, and most days I am home all day. When I do my workouts I can't even do them by myself, I have a little 2 yr old trying to do them too, getting in my way, or she absolutely MUST change her clothes at that moment and needs my help, so I end up doing a lot of yelling and getting fusterated, then I feel guilty. Many days it starts this way then just snowballs into being a miserable day with constant yelling.
But now I am trying to be more aware. I am trying to catch myself when I am starting to lose my patience, and at that very moment give myself a pep talk. I think today I might make up little signs with motivational, positive quotes on them so I can hang them in different spots around my home. Maybe if I go for a walk WITH the children instead of trying to get them to leave me alone long enough to get a workout in. But I don't think I could count that as really working out, cus I wouldn't be able to walk fast with my little monkeys taggin along.
Can you tell I have so many things rambling around in my head that they are all getting jumbled up? Ever have those days? Maybe I will try to relax, drink my coffee and read some more of "The Spark"..........Have a wonderful Day!