Frustrated and confused beyond words.....

Just came back from my PT visit and we got the MRI results back. The baker's cyst is the last of the worries.....my knee is officially messed up.

The short of it, the results were similar to my last MRI back in the US but now they are saying I have a Congenital fault??? I have not even heard of this before. I cannot find much on the internet about it either. They are saying bone was not fully formed on one side. Weird right? This was not talked about during my other ortho visits back in the US. I do not know, it just seems strange.

They are also saying my cartilage is worn down on the front, sides and back. They said it was not full out arthritis but would lead to it in several year and I have bone spurs on both sides and on top of all of this I have small tears in my Quad muscle tendon leading to my knee cap.

So they taped my knee cap and I am icing now from a major deep tissue treatment for my upper calf and we still have the bakers cyst issue. So now on Tuesday they want me to go in for a second opinion with another sports specialist to see what we can do next. Maybe more injections in the knee like I had last year long with some serious PT and strengthening of my inner Quads.

They want me biking like crazy to strength the knee and muscles around the knee as well. I can walk if not painful but they want me to stay away from running.......the one thing I want to do. So upset right now. It is almost as if I had come to terms with the baker's cyst then now, a floodgate of news hits. It is really not too different than my last MRI but they are saying that the bakers cannot be removed as it is not the primary cause of my pain, it is all the other stuff causing the bakers and inflammation all throughout my knee. He looked at my calf again and said COULD be a strain but he wants me to get a second opinion so they can figure out what to do.

Yesterday's workout was like a dream, then I hear this news....I need to gather my thoughts. I am just so tried of being injured.

I think I just need to toss out my running shoes, get on the bike and deal with it. A wanna be marathoner turned cyclist? Surely I am not the first. I do not know what to think right now......BUT......I am thankful I have my overall health, my life and my legs as battered up as they are. I am still grateful. It is not the end of the world.....

Can you hear the positive side of me coming through? I am trying :) But I am human and this hurts my heart. I see so many people running marathons, ultras, IM's and I long for that to be me. But it is as if my body is screaming at me....DO YOGA! DO CYCLING! DO SWIMMING! But all I want to do is run.

Anyways, that is the update for now. Will report back Tuesday......

Thanks for allowing me to vent......