Thursday, May 03, 2012
B oranges, mango, coconut water, kiwi, ginger--yum
L tomatoes, spinach, mesclun, celery, scallions, carrots, cuke
D kale, pears, ginger
Oh I can’t begin to tell you the mental/emotional changes that this juicing has triggered in me. All kinds of realizations are just popping up, and I thought they would be harder to deal with, but I also seem to have developed a knack for handling things as they surface. One of the issues that has come up for me centers around money and abundance. My mother went through the depression and the whole ‘not enough’ way of looking at the world was passed along to me. Of course I internalized this and carried around with me, for the most part unconsciously, and it pervaded every part of my life. So the other day as I was writing what occurred to me was that if I think I’m not enough, what I’ll get is not enough. It seemed so simple! It was like the whole ‘not enough’ thing just dissolved! I can change my story to ‘I appreciate everything that comes my way and am eager for more!’
Another surprise came when I realized just how deep my ‘people pleasing’ runs. This came about as the result of a phone call from one of those solicitors for a worthy cause. I found myself ‘promising’ to take action when I really had no intention of doing so. Later the whole incident kept nagging away at me. And, yes, they had backed me into a corner using whatever techniques they’d been taught, but I was still the one making the promise, and I did it just to please. I sure didn’t like seeing myself in this light, but again, I think just having this awareness will make it easier for me to get in touch with what I’m feeling and not just focus on what the other person wants.
So when ole Hippocates said that food is our medicine, he knew what he was talking about. It’s just that you don't always know what needs to be healed until you start cleaning up your act.