Thursday, May 03, 2012
Went down a little bit today, which was great. That's exactly how I want my weight to come off: slow and steady and then that way I don't have to worry about piling it on instantly as soon as I have a naughty day.
It was soup day again today, which I love, but my mum thought that soup on its own would be too insubstantial so she made some delicious lemon cake for dessert. That would have been fine and I still would have been well within my calorie range if it wasn't for my evening cheese snacking. There was CHEESE in front of me and it felt like I HAD to EAT it!! Of course I know I didn't have to and I shouldn't have, cause I'm gonna wake up feeling all bloated again tomorrow. I seriously need to do something about those cheese cravings.
Bad, bad day. I was out with the dog twice, at least and felt really good and positive afterwards, but the video was hell for me. The first half was just disproportionately exhausting and I have no idea why, as I never struggled with core exercises before. Maybe I was doing something wrong? Then the second half was all leaning on your hands and knees or just hands and it was killing my wrist, so I kind of just wanted to throw in the towel altogether. I kind of struggled my way through, but was way too frustrated to go running afterwards.
I'm not sure these bootcamp videos are such a great idea anymore. I really thought my wrist would be able to cope with these exercises, but it turns out it's not doing as well as I'd hoped. And the truth is that if I modify the exercises it doesn't feel like they're doing much anymore... or anything at all. I'm going to the doctor's tomorrow to get a perscription for physio, so I'm gonna ask her opinion on this.
SOUL AND MIND
Started the day off horribly after a night of terrifyingly vivid nightmares which had me scream on the top of my voice and run all the way to the living room at one point. Not fun. I spent most of the morning worrying about my mental health until I went to walk the dog and got some sense back into myself.
Then things took a dramatic turn when I got a phone call in the evening, when I was invited for an interview for an internship at a tv production company. I'm excited! :D This would mean so much for me, as I really, really need to get some kind of work or study routine back into my life and feel useful and good at something again. Keep your fingers crossed for me!