Thursday, May 03, 2012
It's been 4 months and I've been M.I.A. for most of them on here. Things went a little downhill in January but I still maintained eating well & exercising often. Eventually that started to slide a bit. Then I had a few health incidences that completely shook up my life for a good month or so, resulting in a lot of doctor appointments. Trying to keep up in school, I put aside exercise since I had no motivation and was always tired. Eating well started to fall even more. Early April my grandma passed away and while I was able to see her and say my goodbyes, it was a couple days later she left. Funeral and family things took precedence. I gave up in school with a few classes and decided to stop trying to control everything in my life to be the best (or be what I thought was expected of me), and to focus more on ME and MY health. As such, the last few weeks I've been slowly adding in exercise again, and eating more mindfully and healthy. I've been getting more active on SP again, but not with sparkteams or blogging (moreso logging & reading).
I've learned that I have probably back-stepped in strength training with weights, but that's ok. My endurance and previous ease with running has slipped a bit, but that's ok. It's an ebb and flow, just like life. I'm still in better shape than I was in the fall, and people still think I'm in great shape. I'm learning more and more as I'm gradually putting these things back in my life that I really do function and feel better when I'm actively exercising throughout the week and eating healthy.
Earlier today I had a breakfast that was incredibly delicious- I was able to really indulge in and notice and appreciate all of the tastes that it had. And it was so simple. It was 2 hard boiled eggs, a piece of whole grain gf bread with peanut butter, and an orange. Just the right amount of fuel. It was so much more satisfying than eating french toast at a restaurant a couple of weeks, or having a muffin. And it's surprising to realize that simplicity in a well balanced meal because it's not too much where I get a sugar crash, or am still left hungry, or where I overeat because I feel like I'm still missing "something". I also am alert and can concentrate since I'm not thinking that I'm still hungry or craving something sugary/sweet. So now I'm experimenting with other meals to best get the same thing.
The end of the semester is coming up and I'm moving home for the summer, possibly for good. My last two classes I need for graduation can be done completely online in the fall. I'm looking forward to going home to get away and relax, but also to focus on me. I want to write more about it in a separate blog so I have one spot where it has all of my wishes and desires for those few months, so that will be coming up tomorrow hopefully!
In the meantime I am going to go enjoy this beautiful, gorgeous weather, get in some cardio at the Y, and help out a few friends later. Have a wonderful day SparkPeople!