Thursday, May 03, 2012
I'm not happy with the way things are going at the moment. So I need to change that.
I have some re-grouping, re-focusing, and planning to do. New goals to be set. New accomplishments to achieve. I'm just not sure where to start.
The path I am on is going no where. I have NO idea what path to take. That's something I need to take to God. Only He knows. MAYBE, it's the one I am on...but I need to do MORE with it. I *know* I need to pick up the pace.
I want to be that happy, healthy, determined, and focused girl. But presently, I am none of those. I see something shiny and I drop everything and re-direct my attention. Losing focus.
I can go over my WHY again and again, day after day, time and again. Apparently, it isn't big enough. Because I'm still in the same place I was when I started.
I'm not saying that my life sucks. In fact, it truly doesn't. I'm very blessed with the things I DO have. My son, a roof over our heads, clothes on our backs, and food in our bellies. Very blessed.
Maybe, it's just that I am feeling so intolerant today. I have no idea why. It *could* be hormonal, but it's awful soon for that. :/ But I'm all outta whack where that's concerned anyway, so who knows?
Basically, I'm not who I want to be, and I don't know how to get there. I don't know where to start. There are so many things that need fine tuning, focus, and determination. All three I severely lack. Clearly. Or I would have been at my goal weight when I started with SparkPeople YEARS ago.
It's no wonder I love chocolate cake & brownies! ;)