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Thursday, May 03, 2012

Is needed.

I'm not happy with the way things are going at the moment. So I need to change that.
I have some re-grouping, re-focusing, and planning to do. New goals to be set. New accomplishments to achieve. I'm just not sure where to start.

The path I am on is going no where. I have NO idea what path to take. That's something I need to take to God. Only He knows. MAYBE, it's the one I am on...but I need to do MORE with it. I *know* I need to pick up the pace.

I want to be that happy, healthy, determined, and focused girl. But presently, I am none of those. I see something shiny and I drop everything and re-direct my attention. Losing focus.

I can go over my WHY again and again, day after day, time and again. Apparently, it isn't big enough. Because I'm still in the same place I was when I started.

I'm not saying that my life sucks. In fact, it truly doesn't. I'm very blessed with the things I DO have. My son, a roof over our heads, clothes on our backs, and food in our bellies. Very blessed.

Maybe, it's just that I am feeling so intolerant today. I have no idea why. It *could* be hormonal, but it's awful soon for that. :/ But I'm all outta whack where that's concerned anyway, so who knows?

Basically, I'm not who I want to be, and I don't know how to get there. I don't know where to start. There are so many things that need fine tuning, focus, and determination. All three I severely lack. Clearly. Or I would have been at my goal weight when I started with SparkPeople YEARS ago.

It's no wonder I love chocolate cake & brownies! ;)

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JAVAQUEEN74 5/3/2012 7:36PM

    Thanks, Tara!! You're pretty awesome, too!

And like I said before... this isn't just about weight loss. It's about ALL of my goals, hopes, dreams, and desires. Weight loss is just ONE part of the equation. :)

I need to figure out the whole FOCUS thing. And the self-discipline.

I've also, since writing this blog, decided to take a Facebook hiatus. That thing is NOT helping me achieve my goals and dreams. It's just helping me get Castle points. ;)

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TARANITUP 5/3/2012 7:30PM

    This might be the case of let go and let God... I truly believe He will point you in the right direction if you ask... I think you are pretty awesome, by the way :)

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LADYBUG1107 5/3/2012 7:15PM

    Weight loss is very hard. I wish that I could figure it out too. Be kind to yourself.

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JAVAQUEEN74 5/3/2012 5:49PM

    Oh Becca, it isn't just about my weight. It's everything. :)

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HAIRDOC1 5/3/2012 5:37PM

    I think focusing on the positive would be good. I get the blahs, or feel stuck in a rut and I have to think of the positives in my life and that usually gives me a different perspective on things. And sometimes it just takes one little adjustment to make all the difference in the world. emoticon

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    Aw, Beth...I can certainly sympathize with you. I don't really have any advice for you, though. I know that you know what to do and how to do it...the thing is I don't think you've actually hit what I think of as your tipping point. That point at which your personal "balance" tips over into the actual doing instead of the planning. I reached mine the day I couldn't catch a running toddler in a parking lot. Some people reach theirs when they find that they have to do something or begin medication or have surgery. I'm sure your tipping point is there but until you reach it, that something inside you won't be strong enough to overcome the comfort of your old habits.

I'll be praying for you.

Be blessed!

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CHALLENGER15 5/3/2012 2:25PM

    I have found that if I focus on just one thing for a healthier me for a few days, that the other things I need to do come into focus, too. Perhaps it would be that way for you, too!


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