I really shouldn't be posting this but I need an outlet.
Thursday, May 03, 2012
Yesterday was a hard day for me. I got very very very upset. Actually called to wake a friend up and when she heard what it was about went back to bed. I get it, I do but argh...
So my doctor started me on some pills. Nothing that I NEED to take, just things I should. Been on them for a week. Have been pulling 1,500 daily calorie burns. Eating about 1200 calories. Been here before. Its steady weight loss. Had one binge day and ate about 1000 calories. Not enough for a gain but enough to slow day.
Then tell me why did I gain 2 pounds? My sodium levels are low and in the safe area. Nothing else has changed. I've done this all before. The only new thing are the pills which have an effect on your metabolism. So I'm pissed to have put in all the hard work and see nothing on the scale. I told them I didn't want anything that would effect weight gain and the doctor lied to me. I dumped half the pills last night and am going to call up about the other ones today. Too much stress.
My happiness is very important and since there isn't any ill effect in not taking these pills than I can't see why I should risk my happiness because gaining weight will kill me inside right now.