Changes and Worthiness...
Wednesday, May 02, 2012
Went for a 4 mile walk yesterday—and then couldn’t get “unhungry” when I got home. I can’t tell if it’s because of TOM or if it’s because of stress or if it was hungry. I mean, I felt hungry, but I couldn’t have possibly been hungry still, right? Uggh! Oh well, day’s over and started anew.
I received an oncall phone call at 11:30 p.m. which of course got my mind racing and I was on “red alert” for a potential emergency removal/placement—and couldn’t fall asleep. Then the boyfriend is on mandatory overtime and gets up at 4:15 a.m.—needless to say—I’ve had little to no sleep!
I stayed in bed too long this morning and didn’t have time for my workout—and I’m supposed to go walking this evening, but that throws the kink into my C25K training… do I do my running or 4 miles? The friend I go walking with won’t run. Decisions, Decisions…
Previous attempts to get healthy end with me getting close to goal weight and then somehow, losing sight and putting it back on. This time I feel like something has FINALLY clicked. I figure there’s always going to be curveballs and not so great days, but the fact remains I can exercise! I’m not going to continue with my ‘all or nothing’ attitude—I’m going to give it my best effort and stick with it. No QUITTING!!!
Losing is great, but nothing compares to the way I feel after a good workout. I’m in it for a lifestyle change, not just to get back in a two piece. Whether I meet that weight goal by June or I struggle and hit road blocks, I’m not giving up or giving in this time.
Because I AM WORTH IT!