Wednesday, May 02, 2012
I'll admit it...I stole that line. I saw it on someone's SparkPage and it really resonated with me. So much so, that I wanted a picture of me taken that shows strength and my determination to keep the momentum going.
You see, today I weigh 145 pounds. When I first joined SP, I weighed 167-168 pounds which was way too big for my slight 5'6'' frame. Using SP, I lost right at 50 pounds and got down to 119 pounds, which was way too skinny for my frame. People started asking me if I was well. I stayed at 119 for about a year and then some weight crept back on. I was in my 120's and I look good at 125-129 or so.
Through a series of bad events including my lunch time gym closing & my not being able to work out a regularly as I once did and then going on a cruise (which gave me one pound a day for each day of the 4 day cruise). I spent some time in the 130's. I've been between 133 & 137, which is not ideal but not terrible either, for the last year until February-March of this year. I got very sick with what they called "Allergy Induced Asthma". I couldn't breathe much less work out. They put me on steroids and within 10 days, I went from 137 to 147. No lie!
I freaked out when I saw the scale hit and then sail passed 140 and then I got depressed.
I was really down in the dumps about gaining back fully HALF of the weight I had lost and feeling like at least 10 pounds of it wasn't even my fault! I thought it would drop right off. It didn't and I was depressed some more.
I was sad.
Then I got angry.
Then I got motivated.
I've worked hard over the last few weeks. Three weeks ago, I joined another close by gym. I can't afford it but I can't afford not to. It has turned out to be a real blessing. I can go at lunch and just get on the treadmill...and sit in the hot tub for a few minutes if I choose to which does wonders for my attitude if nothing else.
I have been relentless at my Zumba classes, doing 3-5 hours of Zumba a week and then I've taken up swimming at the 'new' gym. I am logging my food again.
I have begun to feel stronger; taking more control. I will not let this beat me down. I did it once so I know I can do it again.
I'm probably stronger than I've ever been. Today, at 145.2 pounds, some of the weight may be muscle but we'll see as the weeks go by. I'm strong enough to do this thing!