Wednesday, May 02, 2012
I have now kept my weight off, all of it for a year.. Most of it for 2..
I do not freak out anymore when I gain, because I know I will lose it. In a healthy manner.
We just got back from Disneyland, and I am happy to report that I still fit on all the rides, and the ones at Magic Mountain as well, and those are the very rides that finally prodded me to become a healthier me, and stay a healthier me..
I am not going to lie to you guys, I still binge eat, however, rather than binge eat for a week, I generally choose a meal, and let myself go to town, only to find that I simply can't, or I just don't FEEL like it.. I think after all that has happened, I have finally chosen ME.. I have chosen to stay healthy and love the shape I am now.. I had lost 160, and I have sat pretty steadfastly at a loss of 140, and I am here to tell you that I celebrate that whole entire person I have lost everyday.. I am grateful for feeling healthy and fit and actually Pretty.. EVERYDAY!! I wear shorts, I wear short shorts.. I wear sundresses and I am excited to do it.. I know what it is to break heels because you are too big to bear weight on them.. I know what it is to not be able to take my own laundry up 11 stairs without feeling like my heart will give out, and most of all I know what it is to not be able to ride a ride because your body is too big..
Love yourself.. Find the love you have to be in your skin right now, and enjoy the journey..