I am lucky to be alive. I had a near death experience of the car kind this afternoon. I over steered to avoid a collision and ended up pointed in the wrong direction on the freeway. Luckily, the semi did not hit me, no one honked at me, no one was angry, they just patiently waited for me to put the car in park (because it won't restart after that behavior.) restart, and cautiously put it in gear. I am shook up. But, there isn't a scratch on me or my car. Thats enough to make me believe in angels and that there is a purpose for me because there is no reason for me to have made it out of that alive.
Just a few moments later, in the dentist's chair, I am told that I need a tooth extracted (code for pulled.) and a filling. Apparently I have an infection (that I can't feel.) and have been sick for a long time. Well. Its time for that to go. This may have been the root cause (
) of my weight gain over the past few months, oral infections are known to cause weight gain. The cool part is its only about 400$. That I can afford!!! Yippee!
So, all in all, good news: alive. Bad news: tooth goes bye bye. Good news: not so spendy after all. Bad news: won't be able to workout day after tooth extraction.
So. . . . what does this all mean, anyway? Just what is this life I have supposed to do? What am I supposed to be doing? It can't just be fighting my weight and the eternal job search. At a certain point my folks will pass (hopefully not for a long time, my Mom is my best friend.) and I will be left with a house, my brother (has some issues of his own.) and at that point just what ever food is left in the store room. I will always have the house, my piano, my violin, my education, and my collection of workout videos. I hope that the job market thaws a bit. I did apply at Trader Joe's the other day. I'm not willing to work in a burger joint, thats like sending an alcoholic to work as a bar tender. Not the best situation.
So, back to the question: what is my purpose? Universe, I got the message that I'm supposed to be here. I do have some talents. I have a knack for piano, especially Chopin's nocturnes. I do love babies. I have not had any of my own, but I genuinely wish all babies love and opportunity. I love art, photography, paintings, music, animals (birds!!), and people. I am so fond of all of my spark friends. I genuinely care about what happens to you. Did I mention I love my dance dvds, my hiking, my Cathe workouts, and my Jillian Michaels? Oh yeah, those kettlebells are my best friends!!!