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Giving Myself Credit

Tuesday, May 01, 2012

I have been having a difficult time at work lately. I can't seem to get out from under. I am running from one deadline to another and I don't seem to be making anyone happy, least of all myself. It will be 17 years with this company on the 15th of this month and sometimes I feel like they are trying to nudge me out. I have been in my current position for a little over 2 years and I still don't have a job description. I am supposed to report directly to the owner, but in reality I answer to the 30-year-old that I hired 5 years ago. Sometimes it's tough to take.

We have been very busy for the past few months and I have been taking graduate classes at the same time. More than once over the past 8 weeks I have wondered what I thought I was doing. I would not be in graduate school if it wasn't for SparkPeople. I always said I could 'never' go back to school. I had been doing well in school so far, but I always give credit to outside forces, not to myself. The teacher likes me, I already knew a lot of this through my job, my DD helped me with my presentation...I could go on and on. But for the past 8 weeks I have been taking a finance class that has been kicking my butt. I have not worked so hard in a class before, at least not that I can remember. I had a teacher that I never had before. The class was large for an online class and he never "bonded" with any of us. This time it was all on me - and me alone - to succeed or fail.

My final grades posted today and I earned an A.

I am proud of me!

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  • LPETRO119
    Wow! That's a double accomplishment! Getting the 'A' and taking the time to acknowledge that you did a great job - way to go!

    Totally with you on the job front! Been in mine for 9 years, wondering if this is a Pittsburgh "thing" - not so many places to move to in certain fields? Or is it like this all over because in general everyone is understaffed and overworked? Hang in there, you'll make it!
    2147 days ago
    Of course you got an A--you're A-mazing! Great job! emoticon
    2148 days ago
    that is so awesome! Congrats on the A!
    2148 days ago
  • NEWME0519
    Debbie great job on earning an A!
    2149 days ago
    WTG!!! It just shows you what you can do when you put your mind to it!!
    Jobs can get boring and stressful and its doesnt help if you dont feel good about it. Like I tell DH just go in there and do your thing the best you can and at the end of the day walk away. Its not like it use to be today saddly jobs are just jobs and way to make a living. Think this is a sad way of life. Hope that you will keep working with school and find something that makes you happy.
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    2149 days ago
    Woohoo!! Awesome job!!

    I vote that you get to treat yourself to a whole weekend day doing only things you want to do, without thinking about work for a single minute! (I know, I know, it's a nice dream, but you do certainly deserve it!)

    2149 days ago
    Oh gosh do I recognize a lot of this in myself! Why is it so easy for us to say 'oh, if such'n'such hadn't happened.. if so'n'so hadn't helped..' etc. and yet it's so hard to say 'yes, I did a good job'?!

    Congratulations on EARNING that A. You should be proud of you. I am!
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    2149 days ago
    Good for you, Debbie, with earning that A. I'm proud of you for your accomplishment. As far as the work goes, I understand the feeling of not getting out from under. It's the same with me. I finish one project, only to find that three more have been added to my in-box. How do I handle it? I often work on two or three projects at a time. Some are easier to do than others, so doing that often helps. I have no clue as to what your projects entail, so I certainly cannot suggest that you do the same. But at least think about it. It seems to work for me.
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    2149 days ago
    I am soooo proud of you!! You deserve all of the A's and good things in life to come your way.

    2149 days ago
    Awesome!! I know you won't put less pressure on yourself, but celebrate this one thing even if it is just for today!! But you should do it for even longer!! So proud of you.
    2149 days ago
    YAY you deserve to give yourself credit GO YOU!!!!!
    2149 days ago
  • BAKER1009
    That is awesome Debbie, I'm so proud of you!
    As an online college student, you have to give yourself a lot of credit! I know first hand how difficult going to school online can be. You really have to be a self learner in this environment! Keep up the great work!!
    (P.S. What online school are you attending?)

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    2149 days ago
  • KJACOBS1111
    I'm proud of you too! I think all of us who take classes as adults sometimes seriously wonder what we were thinking, especially when we feel overwhelmed or tired...and we miss downtime and friendtime and relaxation...but then there is the AMAZING reward at the end! Awesome job!
    2150 days ago
    You are doing great girl! You are going forward all the way. You should be proud :}
    TY for allways cheering me on as well......
    2150 days ago
    Way to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And, I completely agree with can definitely open doors to you for something that makes you happy!

    So PROUD of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    2150 days ago
    OMG!!!! This is great!! I would guarantee that anyone who knows you would not be in the least surprised that you got the A, but you really had to prove it to yourself and you did!!!

    If I were FlyLady I'd be in Purple Puddles and I'd be sending you a dozen lovely purple pens that say "I'm so proud of you!!" As it is, I'm a little weepy anyway!

    2150 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon I'm proud oF you too!
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    Comment edited on: 5/1/2012 10:08:29 PM
    WOOOO Freakin' HOOOOOO! emoticon emoticon
    2150 days ago
    By golly, you SHOULD be proud of YOU!!!! I am very proud of you too! Love you my friend. Dawn
    2150 days ago
    Congratulations on getting an A - that's fantastic! Plus you're working as well and have to fit everything in. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2150 days ago
    Sorry the work situation is draining you... but don't let your thoughts get away from you. Deal with things as they actually come your way.

    Besides, working full time and taking classes and EARNING that well deserved A is something to be VERY proud of!

    2150 days ago
    GREAT job!! Maybe once you're finished you'll be able to get a new job doing something you really love! emoticon
    2150 days ago
    WOW -fantastic job !! You should be very proud!!
    2150 days ago
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