May is here and so am I
Tuesday, May 01, 2012
I've been on a kind of hiatus from Spark for a month. Still keeping up with okay exercising. Probably not eating as fantastic as before, but still not terrible.
BUT MAY IS HERE!
April is always the WORST month. I'm an environmental educator and it's Earth Month so I have a lot to do. Coupled that with a lot of home stress and it's a recipe for not having much time to spend on the computer. BUT I'm not gone. I'm back. Don't worry.
So what's happened to me in the month of April?
Well the best news is last week my husband GOT A JOB!!!! YAHOO! I literally feel like the whole weight of the world has been taken off my shoulders and that life can start again. Hopefully my anxiety attacks can calm down and disappear and we can just have fun and enjoy. It's such a great job too - a career really - and I am SO proud of him. I'm just beaming. Best thing is that he is working right across the street from me and we have similar work hours so we can go to work together and even have lunch together every so often.
Counting down to race day.
12 days to go.
I'm scared to death.
I've realized that running on a treadmill is WAY easier than running on the road. I've been taking the dog running, but she cam sometimes be a real pain to drag along and sometimes she trips me up, so today I decided to concentrate on running and didn't take her. Man I wish I had.
Have you ever had this urge to do something incredibly mean and devious and fantasize about it in your head, thinking about how awesome it would be to do something like that? I was actually made fun of today while running. By two little boys. I had this horrible urge to pick up a stick and shove it in their bicycle wheel. I haven't been made fun of like that for a very long time. Besides a horrible comment on a youtube video from work I produced after the earthquake a few years ago.
And all I wanted to do was hurt them back.
It's a strange moment when you realize that your gut human instinct says to do something back, but that you know better. I shed a couple of tears, sniffed my nose and continued home to my loving husband and puppy.