Tuesday, May 01, 2012
I still see the fat girl when I look in the mirror. Granted Iíve not lost everything Iíve wanted to yet, but Iíve lost a lot (56 pounds to date).
I used to look at pictures of myself and hated what I sawómostly because it didnít match the vision of me in my head. Now I look at pictures taken of me and I am amazed at how much thinner I am, and yet when I look in the mirror I see the fat girl.
Itís not a matter of self confidence. I know I am a great mom, student, teacher-to-be, friend, girlfriend, lover, and the list goes on. I know when to be grown up and I know how to be silly. Iím a lot of fun to be around.
The picture in my head is still the same as it was before. Similar to the pictures taken of me now. So, why do I still see the fat girl when I look in the mirror?