The Fat Girl in the Mirror
Tuesday, May 01, 2012
I still see the fat girl when I look in the mirror. Granted I’ve not lost everything I’ve wanted to yet, but I’ve lost a lot (56 pounds to date).
I used to look at pictures of myself and hated what I saw—mostly because it didn’t match the vision of me in my head. Now I look at pictures taken of me and I am amazed at how much thinner I am, and yet when I look in the mirror I see the fat girl.
It’s not a matter of self confidence. I know I am a great mom, student, teacher-to-be, friend, girlfriend, lover, and the list goes on. I know when to be grown up and I know how to be silly. I’m a lot of fun to be around.
The picture in my head is still the same as it was before. Similar to the pictures taken of me now. So, why do I still see the fat girl when I look in the mirror?