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Conquering a 13-Year-Old Fear

Tuesday, May 01, 2012


Short version of this story is in the video. The longer version:

In July, 1999, I went to a family reunion in Castroville, TX. The reunion was held at a church there, and on their grounds was a swingset . At the time, I loved swings and always took the opportunity to get on one whenever I could. That day was no different. I got on one of the swings and took off, swinging high and fast.

Then, one of the chains of my swing popped. It had rusted through near the top of the chain, too high up for me to see. It popped while I was rushing backwards toward the ground. I was leaning back, so I was rammed head-first into the ground. I blacked out for a few moments.

Other than a twisted C2 vertebrae - undiscovered until I saw my chiropractor for the first time three years later - the only thing I suffered from the incident was an instant fear of swings. Since that day in 1999, I have not gotten back on one. I've been way too terrified. If that chain could pop when I was a tiny, 130-lb athletic girl, I could not trust another chain to hold me when I weighed a whole lot more! Only in the last year or so did I decide that this was a fear I really wanted to conquer one day.

This past weekend, Jason and Laurence went camping. Morrigan and Ambrose stayed home with me. Sunday morning, I took them to the playground at our local branch of the library. We were the only ones there, and those swings...they called to me. I had planned to wait until I was closer to goal weight to try to conquer this fear, but something told me that it was time. So I gathered up my courage and got on the swing.



Morrigan ran over to take pictures and a video. My boys all know why I avoid swings, and they knew what a momentous occasion this was for me. I didn't go very high, or very fast, but I stayed on that swing for a good five minutes, and smiled the whole time despite my terror.

I did it. I'm still leery of swings, but I hope that eventually I can get to where I can use them without fear, and then to where I can enjoy them again. I want to recapture that childhood love.
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GUNNSGIRL91303 5/9/2012 6:37PM

    emoticon It is so empowering to overcome a fear. I know lots of people are afraid of spiders but I have been a true arachnaphobe most of my life to the point where I would not go outside, go camping, garden...nothing. If I saw a spider in my house I would actually leave my house until I could find someone to go in and kill it. Needless to say this limited me in many ways. When hubby and I bought a house on a 1/4 acre several years ago it had been neglected for about 10 years and we had a huge spider problem, the wolf spiders that get SO huge and jump at you. I didn't go downstairs in my own home for months, couldn't do the laundry because it was located downstairs. My husband got rid of our spiders but I've slowly gotten (mostly) over the fear and now enjoy gardening, camping, hiking and all the things I used to be afraid to do. And it feels so good. Now when I see a spider I'm ok, as long as it is not on me or doesn't just drop down out of nowhere in front of me. Conquering a fear is hard but makes life so much better. I'm so happy you are swinging again, I've always loved it! Swing on girl!

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SINISTRAL 5/8/2012 9:26AM

    I know how hard that can be -- conGRATS!!!

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TRUE-NESS 5/5/2012 7:13PM

    emoticon emoticon Great going, Amanda! Feel the fear and do it anyway!! emoticon

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LYNLE0423 5/4/2012 8:14PM

    Awesome! that is fabulous that you conquered that fear!

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KAMINEKO 5/3/2012 2:59PM

    Go you! emoticon

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REJ7777 5/3/2012 2:54AM

    One less limitation in your life! emoticon emoticon

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YIWEN39 5/3/2012 1:51AM

    That is awesome!!! What a huge step, that is really great!
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TAMARA6905 5/2/2012 2:15AM

    I am so proud of you for conquering your fear of swings! They are way to fun for you to miss out on that joy and sense of freedom! Go you!

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ELISOS 5/2/2012 12:13AM

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RYDERB 5/2/2012 12:10AM

    emoticon emoticon What a great way to start this new month! emoticon

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MJ-SHE-BEAST 5/1/2012 10:47PM

    Facing real fears takes a whole lot more than just determination...it takes the kind of strength and courage we don't really think we possess until we actually do it. It's not easy to do, but once done, you carry that strength and the memory of it forever. Good job!

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TXLADY110 5/1/2012 10:22PM

    Awesome!! congrats BVig Pat ont he back.
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MISTYBLUE716 5/1/2012 8:51PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon that's awesome! good to see you in action too! LOL! Love it!

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CYALE76 5/1/2012 6:03PM

    emoticon That's so awesome that you were able to face your fear and in time I'm sure you will enjoy it again !! I love how excited your kids are that you were able to over come this fear it shows how supportive they are.

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WHATEVR411 5/1/2012 4:55PM

    Fantastic! When you face a fear like that, it changes you and I believe it makes you a stronger person. Good for you and thanks for sharing your story!

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MINERVASPARKING 5/1/2012 3:03PM

    *tears* So Huge! You are emoticon !!!

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GINCHIFER 5/1/2012 1:39PM

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Congratulations!!!

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SHUFFMAN126 5/1/2012 12:50PM

    Wow, good for you! It's so amazing the things SparkPeople helps us conquer. When we take care of ourselves, other things tend to take care of themselves. Also, I love your username! Gonna add you as a Friend.

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CURVYELVIESAYS 5/1/2012 12:06PM

    You are so brave and I think you deserve a big emoticon . I used to love swings also but, now when I swing on one I get vertigo. I am afraid of heights so I tie the two together. Thank you for showing me that you can then I know I can.

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/1/2012 11:55AM

    Good for you, that's awesome!

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BBORDEN86 5/1/2012 11:31AM

    I'm so happy you were able to conquer this fear. I love swinging... it's actually a good workout! Plus it's so fun when you can feel like a kid again for a brief moment!

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PATALY75 5/1/2012 11:16AM

    Fantastic !!!! emoticon

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FUCHSIAGAL 5/1/2012 10:54AM

  That's a great story! Good for you!

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SANDRAREGINA 5/1/2012 10:13AM

    That's fantastic! I love swings myself. Hope you can keep working on that fear and get back into them.

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NEWTINK 5/1/2012 10:06AM

    Great job ... you look happy so it was worth the risk ... I love swinging and miss it terribly but soon i will be able to again ... Have a swinging day !!!!

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BACKATITAMY 5/1/2012 9:52AM

  Way to go overcoming your fear. One less thing to worry about :) I love swinging with the kids. It's so fun and they love to see me happy and acting like a kid with them :)


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DEZZIEJAMES 5/1/2012 9:50AM

    WONDERFUL!!! Look at you conquering your fears!!!!!

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CHANGINGSAM 5/1/2012 9:38AM

    I'm so proud of you for conquering that fear! You did great!

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MOSTMOM1 5/1/2012 8:56AM

    GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!!! I'm so proud of you and I can tell your boys are too.
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GOLDENDOMER00 5/1/2012 8:52AM

    Congratulations, Amanda! I'm so proud of you. 2012 is going to be an awesome year!

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MOMMASHUTT 5/1/2012 8:03AM

    Congratulations Amanda for conquering that fear and with your children to see you do it makes it that much better! Swing On my friend!

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