We went out of town for the weekend, to visit DH's son and DIL and we havent seen them since Christmas. I had lost a few before then but I didnt have much success on my own until I started tracking at SP after the first of the year.

And it took my DIL awhile to finally say something about my weight loss, so I was beginning to think that maybe ppl can't tell. I mean I thought I could tell, and then sometimes you just feel the same. I mean I know I have lost weight but since I know I have more to lose, I guess sometimes we just settle into the new "less fat but still fat" version, and while better, it's still fat so we forget where we started from. So I was thinking that maybe no one could tell. Maybe 40 pounds is not enough for others to tell, or maybe they never saw me at my heaviest, which actually means it could be more like 50 pounds but I quit weighing myself at some point.

But finally.... she said... You have lost alot of weight, havent you? And internally I was like Whew.. finally!! And she noticed DH had lost weight too. He has lost about 20 pounds.

Then after we were back home on Sunday, my sister showed up while I was fixing dinner. I had on a shirt that I dont wear very often, as it is a little snug and she said.... Wow, look at you! You really have lost alot of weight! And when she said it, it made me feel good but it really caught me off guard. I mean, I see her regularly. I was watching her daughter for the last few years after school and summers but needed a break so I havent for the last month or so, but we still have family dinners out here once a month. And I just saw her last week I think, when I dropped off some ballerina slippers for her daughter, and she was like OMGawd, you are out of your house!! Haha. Sadly funny I guess, I dont know if I blogged about that already, but I am happy at home, in my comfort zone, but anyways, I think I had on a coat... which I never would have worn before either, and I can zip it now! So she probably didnt notice then, so that made me feel really good that she noticed and said something. And the way she said it, it was like she was shocked!

And the timing was perfect. I had Chinese over the weekend. I have been pretty good all these months, and I am not calling it a Cheat Day, and I didnt fall off the wagon - I made a decision to not worry about it for the weekend and to avoid the scale when I got home for a few days. Well I didnt avoid it long enough, I showed a gain and I know it is salt & bloating, because I dont think my calories were all that bad according to my tracker, but some of my choices were not very primal, lots of crunchy things, so I knew that the salt & refined flours, sugar, would make me retain and gain. And it did, but I already had my plan for damage control in place and I have already lost most of that again. But anyways, the timing for my sister to stop by and comment was perfect because even though I had a plan, it might have been easy to say oh heck with it. No one much is noticing, is it really worth it - I just as well eat what I want to anyways. So I was glad she popped in and derailed that train of thought before it even left the station.