Monday, April 30, 2012
Over the past five years I have been out of control. I lost my self esteem and my will power. Im not sure what really happened, but I just feel awful about myself and in turn I dont take care of myself. I have gained over 50 pounds in the last five years and have been eating horribly. Starting in March I decided that I wanted my life back, I wanted to feel better about myself and I wanted to lose weight. But the problem is, I dont really know where to start, I do in my head, but it just doesn't transfer to real life.... I know to eat healthier to exercise more, but I keep falling off track. When I first started out I was going to the gym every day and eating great. But then the people I was working out with decided that it wasnt for them and it took too much time and effort, so therefore I was less motivated to go to the gym. I am trying to stay on track but its hard, especially when people ask you to go to lunch or dinner, and there are all kinds of treats at work. I need to find my will power to say away from sweets and things that are bad for me. My goal is to lose 30lbs by the time I go to Disney world in November. I really would like to lose all 50 but Im not sure that is realistic which the way I have been going. I have joined a ton of sites trying to find motivation and help making meal plans, but all of the meal plans I have seen have foods I have never tried and some I have never heard of and I just dont have the money to buy something I dont end up eating.....well thats all for now. I will update my progess next Monday to see if I do any better.