Monday, April 30, 2012
Have I become such a food tyrant in just a few days that it is affecting my dreams? This morning I woke up asking myself "What is the use?" due to a dream that I had the night before.
The dream was about people ruining my eating plan. I had certain meals plan out and I only bought groceries for those meals. People living in the commune that I was living in had just gone into the frig and eaten things that I purchased, hence my meal plans were ruined.
I have a feeling that this stems from a conversation that I had with my husband last night. I had made some biscuits to eat with dinner and had told him that he could only have two. He return whined and said that he loved the biscuits and wanted to eat more. My husband is maybe fifty pound overweight but works a very active job in a warehouse.
The truth is that I can only change the my ways of eating. I have to admit that it frustrates me to watch our savings be nickle and dime by his snacking. Once again the truth is that all I can do is say my peace and then make sure that I eat healthier.
Hopefully, my husband will see how it is helping me and then he will begin to want to change his ways of eating.
No matter how frustrated I get with meal planning, budgets, exercise and my body, this is going to be all worth it. Every day I see pictures of other Sparkpeople who have had success and I want to be successful. I want to be one of those people that has a beginning picture of 400+ pounds and then a picture of myself at a muscular 140 lbs.