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struggling to look for the good but i will find it.

Monday, April 30, 2012

the problem when you are really tired and in pain and when on top of that the kids are ill it is easy to get down and let things get you down.to comfort eat and to not bother to exercise or in fact not to bother full stop.this last week i have been having trouble breathing as i have pulled a muscle in my back(never knew a pulled muscle could hurt so much )every movement it complains,even sleeping is painful,getting in and out of bed even turning in my slöeep wakes me up lol.so instead of doing nothing i have been walking(no running)on my treadmill and doing stretching for my exercise.friday ayyub was ill went blue several times and had 40 fever so little sleep that night.we think he was just excited about the kindergarten spring festival which was on saturday and for which he had been practicing a song for the last 2 months.he ended up not going at all which was a shame.ayman has since saturday night throwing up on and off so lots of bed washing,clothes,floor,sofa,cus
hions etc.the fun never ends.again,lack of sleep.oh sleep how i miss and need you. looking on the goodside at least this time i have a working washing machine and the sun is shining so things dry quicker.last time ayman was this bad it was winter,wet and cold and the washmachine was broke.so even though i am complaining about the work i essencaly have a lot to be thankful for.but stripping and making the beds with a pulled back muscle is not a fun thing.up to know ayman is still managing to eat and drink somethings which is good as otherwise he might have to go into hospital.just having to swao my meals plans around abit so i am not cooking differant meals.planed for today was chicken stirfry with chiiese noodles but now i will either make a chicken curry(we have chicken left over from yesturday)with steamed rice or do a stirfry rice that way ayman can have some plain rice.it is hard though as he keeps wanting what i can´tgive him.i.e. biscuits and orangges and of cause milk and yogurt etc.but all milk products are out at the moment.he is also hungry as he keeps bringing up what he eats.he is too young to understand and keeps begging me for things.sometimes it is hard as a mother when you must say no to your son especially when he is ill.theese are the times you want to treat and moddicodle them,lol.i thought i would write this blog to get this out of my system as to be honest i have been really struggling this week on the food side and have not always made healthy choices.which because my exerciseing is basically down to walking with a few others thrown in i should be monitin my food better,lol.but tomorrow is my birthday and even though we are probably (no probably about it)staying in because of ayman i am going use this day as another turning point in my journey and to use it as a reason(notice i didn´t say excuse)to recomitt.so look out for my next blog either tomorrow or the next day with my new plans.have to work them out first.after all i will be another year nearer my big 50 and that event my love i want to celerbrate being,fit,healthy and hopefully pain free. emoticon
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    2147 days ago
  • ABB698
    emoticon love! You sure do have lots of things happening at once, but you are strong and beautiful and awesome and emoticon
    Keep your chin up and smile!
    2149 days ago
    Happy Birthday Karen!!..Have a great day today ... Give the Boys big cuddles from me !!
    and am sending a extra big one for you xx
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    2149 days ago
    Have a happy day tomorrow, your family need you, your friends need you, Sparkers need you. Good job there is plenty to go round, lol!
    2150 days ago
    I hope, and pray, that everything will soon get better, for you, and your family !
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    2150 days ago
    I'm sorry all of you aren't feeling well :( and a pulled muscle is terrible! I hope you heal up soon :( You are awesome for still going on the treadmill, you deserve a medal! :) :) :)
    2150 days ago
    You have to take care of yourself and your family. It is commendable that you are still worried about your exercise and diet, but you really need to focus on your health and that of your boys.

    I hope you feel better soon and that your children are well.

    2150 days ago
  • -SONIA-
    I like the idea of making your birthday a new beginning. A new year! That is a positive way to look at it. Even if you can't go out, you can still stay in -- and write and reflect -- and make it a quiet, peaceful beginning to the year. Would you be able to take some time for yourself? Maybe just for a bubble bath, or some quiet reading? Something special just for you!

    I hope you and your children heal quickly and feel better soon! emoticon emoticon
    2150 days ago
    Well, you are having a rough time of it between sick kids and a pulled muscle. I do remember those days when you feel as if the world is just that small space indoors and you feel as if life "out there" is going on somehow without you. But as you stated, it was different last year and soon they will be healthy and driving you crazy in other ways. Keep up the walking and find a little time just for you, it will certainly help your mood and your motivation:)
    2150 days ago
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