Monday, April 30, 2012
the problem when you are really tired and in pain and when on top of that the kids are ill it is easy to get down and let things get you down.to comfort eat and to not bother to exercise or in fact not to bother full stop.this last week i have been having trouble breathing as i have pulled a muscle in my back(never knew a pulled muscle could hurt so much )every movement it complains,even sleeping is painful,getting in and out of bed even turning in my slöeep wakes me up lol.so instead of doing nothing i have been walking(no running)on my treadmill and doing stretching for my exercise.friday ayyub was ill went blue several times and had 40 fever so little sleep that night.we think he was just excited about the kindergarten spring festival which was on saturday and for which he had been practicing a song for the last 2 months.he ended up not going at all which was a shame.ayman has since saturday night throwing up on and off so lots of bed washing,clothes,floor,sofa,cus
hions etc.the fun never ends.again,lack of sleep.oh sleep how i miss and need you. looking on the goodside at least this time i have a working washing machine and the sun is shining so things dry quicker.last time ayman was this bad it was winter,wet and cold and the washmachine was broke.so even though i am complaining about the work i essencaly have a lot to be thankful for.but stripping and making the beds with a pulled back muscle is not a fun thing.up to know ayman is still managing to eat and drink somethings which is good as otherwise he might have to go into hospital.just having to swao my meals plans around abit so i am not cooking differant meals.planed for today was chicken stirfry with chiiese noodles but now i will either make a chicken curry(we have chicken left over from yesturday)with steamed rice or do a stirfry rice that way ayman can have some plain rice.it is hard though as he keeps wanting what i can´tgive him.i.e. biscuits and orangges and of cause milk and yogurt etc.but all milk products are out at the moment.he is also hungry as he keeps bringing up what he eats.he is too young to understand and keeps begging me for things.sometimes it is hard as a mother when you must say no to your son especially when he is ill.theese are the times you want to treat and moddicodle them,lol.i thought i would write this blog to get this out of my system as to be honest i have been really struggling this week on the food side and have not always made healthy choices.which because my exerciseing is basically down to walking with a few others thrown in i should be monitin my food better,lol.but tomorrow is my birthday and even though we are probably (no probably about it)staying in because of ayman i am going use this day as another turning point in my journey and to use it as a reason(notice i didn´t say excuse)to recomitt.so look out for my next blog either tomorrow or the next day with my new plans.have to work them out first.after all i will be another year nearer my big 50 and that event my love i want to celerbrate being,fit,healthy and hopefully pain free.