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I'm Doing It!!

Sunday, April 29, 2012

I've been overweight almost my whole life.. That's a long time since I just turned 43 (this past March). I've done it all...tried alot of different diets....joined gyms quit gyms....lost weight regained it.
In 2011 I finally got fed up. I was at my heaviest ever~328 lbs!! Whoa! When did this happen? Overtime is when. Times of eating too much, eating the wrong foods, not exercising. Just not taking care of myself.
I started on my weight loss journey July 3 2011 and haven't looked back. I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. I got fed up with how I looked and how I felt. I want to be around for my kids and not just watch from the sidelines anymore. I don't want to die young due to something I could have prevented.
Brief history: My youngest son will be turning 5 in May and back when he was about a year old I remember going to a doctor to start on the process of having lap band surgery. I decided against it and that it wasn't for me. The doctor told me the way that I ate when I would lose weight is the right way to eat once I had surgery (smaller portions no carbs). The surgery wasn't a guarantee that I would lose weight. I decided not to go thru with it because I didn't want to go thru the whole process just for it not to work. Time went on and so did more weight.
Back to July 3 2011. I started making changes. I was watching portions, cutting back carbs, & slowing adding in cardio. All of a sudden I'm starting to realize that weight was starting to come off. That in of itself was motivation. I stuck with it. I was determined to stay determined and not go back to where I was before July 3 2011. I was making small realistic goals that were attainable and nothing unrealistic. Everytime I reached 1 it was motivating. I learned not to set any goals that I knew to be unrealistic because that can get someone depressed when you don't reach them. This is something I still do.
Fast forward to today~April 29 2012~I HAVE LOST 132 lbs!! I am in Onederland! I still have a long way to go but I am definitely a new person. I can tell my confidence has increased. I look better and feel better ( I can't remember when I last had an issue with my asthma). I love clothes shopping now. Who wouldn't when you're able to buy clothes in "regular" clothes stores. I move around better. People around me even say I seem different~more alive more vibrant. I continue to do cardio (Richard Simmons is my fav) and I belong to a gym. I do what I can when I can. I learned not to beat myself if I miss a workout or a day at the gym or if I ate wrong. What I'm doing I have to do for the rest of my life. It's something I have to live with. I try to go by this saying that I heard "Ask yourself if what you're doing today is bringing you closer to where you want to be tomorrow". We seem to focus too much on how far we have to go instead of celebrating how far we have come.
I lost this 132 lbs WITHOUT surgery (since July 3 2011). I did it with pure want power & focus & determination. I have had setbacks and there maybe more in the future. Who knows? But, if there are then I will deal with it and move on. Regardless of how many setbacks or roadbumps there maybe on this path I'm on, it will NEVER make me change focus and direction and move backwards. I will keep moving forward. It's the only way I know now. I am stronger than I was back then both mentally & physically & emotionally.
Today at the park with my kids I was able to go down a kid's slide. Some people may think that's silly but for someone like me (when I weighed 328 lbs was usually 9 out of 10 times the heaviest person everywhere I went) to be able to fit on a kid's slide is an accomplishment. I was able to climb around on the playground equipment with my son and the smile on his face to see his mom playing with him instead of watching him from the bench is one of the reasons why I did what I did and will do what I'm gonna do.
The only thing I'm sad about is that my mom & dad aren't around for this. I know they wanted me to lose weight. I know, too, they are watching over me and are proud. I mean, heck, I'm proud.
I really don't want to come across conceited but I am really really proud of how far I've come. There are so many out there that are struggling with their weight whether it's 20 lbs to lose or as much as I had to lose or more. We, as humans, have to learn to think more of ourselves and love ourselves more and realize WE ARE WORTH IT!! We are worth being healthy, we are worth looking good, & we are worth BEING HAPPY! We are worth all this & much more! We deserve this!! . Focus on your failures/setbacks and your destined to repeat them. Learn from it. Forgive yourself because you love yourself & move forward to a new you. Celebrate all that you have achieved & more will come your way.
Each day is a new day to create a new you!
If anyone has any comments on this blog or any questions or wants to buddies/friends please don't hesitate to contact me.

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JACKIEMOMOF3 6/21/2012 1:20PM

    Thx so much Jcardinal & SRBROWN12....Thank you everyone for the support & kind words. It touches me when I hear that I inspire others. It's an added bonus to weight loss. Love Ya All!! emoticon emoticon

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CHANGINGSAM 6/21/2012 9:59AM

    You definitely don't sound conceited. You have every right to be proud and shout it from the roof tops! You have come so far, and I am so proud of you for choosing to change your life (without surgery too!). You are truly an inspiration, Jackie! Keep up the great work!


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JCARDINAL 6/20/2012 8:49PM

    I love this blog!! It has inspired me to not give up!! Thank you!!

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JACKIEMOMOF3 6/20/2012 8:35PM

    Thank you so much CK!! You can do this!! I'm here for you if you need or want!!


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CKLROBERSON 6/19/2012 4:40PM

    Thank you for sharing this blog. I could completely relate to how you felt when you started your journey. I started mine in February of this year at 303 lbs and LOVE to be able to go down a kids's slide : ) I have had some struggles recently following my program and I love your message about forgiving yourself and moving on. Because you are right..We are all worth it. "Each day is a new day to create a new you". I'm gonna have to steal that : ) You and your success is very inspiring. Best of luck to you as you continue your journey.

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JACKIEMOMOF3 5/4/2012 6:59PM

    Thank you. Everyone of you inspire me....XO

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MARSCK 5/4/2012 9:22AM

    Thanks!! You are such an inspiration!!

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JACKIEMOMOF3 5/3/2012 7:57PM

    Thank you Serena XOXO

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SERENAJL 5/3/2012 7:51PM

    So inspiring.

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JACKIEMOMOF3 5/3/2012 6:52PM

    Thanks So Much Karen XOXO

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CANDOK1260 5/3/2012 6:47PM

    emoticon Thanks for sharing you are really inspiring emoticon emoticon

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JACKIEMOMOF3 4/30/2012 3:59PM

    Thanks so much everyone for the support XOXO

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CHANGINGSAM 4/30/2012 11:33AM

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BYTHEGRACE 4/30/2012 9:09AM

    Love it...especially the "want power"...has a little more "passion" than "willpower" don't ya think! Keep going, Jackie...we're cheering for you! emoticon

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JACKIEMOMOF3 4/30/2012 8:32AM

    Thank you so much ladies....all of you for the friendship and support....xoxo

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DIVEGODDESS 4/30/2012 8:29AM

    Loved your blog. "Every day is a new day to create a new you". Love that!! I totaly agree!!

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SHARON-MARIE 4/29/2012 10:32PM

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JACKIEMOMOF3 4/29/2012 10:23PM

    Thank you ladies....everyone here is such motivation for me.....XOXO

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QUASIOR 4/29/2012 10:21PM

    Well done :) You are achieving your goals. It's my motivation too to be able to bit a fit mum so I can play with my children, and to be around for them instead of a burden, so I get you.

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LEN_VERSION32 4/29/2012 10:19PM

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