Sunday, April 29, 2012
Who do I think I'm kidding. I haven't been eating right or exercising for like 2 months. I lost most of my weight the first month I was on here. I've dropped a little bit here and there since, but I could be losing so much more. Several weeks ago I quit measuring, I quit tracking on a daily base for nutrition and fitness, I quit doing strength training, I quit drinking my daily water and I quit looking for healthy options when I went out. Every time I get sick, I don't feel like eating and then I sabotage myself. Also when I'm sick, my kids turn my house upside down and the I get backed up on the kitchen/dishes, counters, and table. When my microwave blew up, it blew my whole routine off. I know excuses excuses. I'll tell you more. When I went to the movies with my kids for the first time in forever, I was like, I deserve this... one day won't hurt me to eat out and have some candy, pop, and popcorn. Then we went to the movies with my mom and dad which we never do. Then mom and I went out for the day which we hadn't done in forever. Then I didn't make anything to eat before I had to be at the sing with nachos and hot dogs on the menu. You see the pattern. I made a few good choices along the way, but my lack of exercise, water, and calorie restraint undid every good choice I made. I'm totally off guys. I keep trying to figure out how to jump start, but my allergy shots have me so tired. Also my arthritis and bursitis are getting worse. Every time I do an exercise with my legs, arms, hands, or hips, I can't hardly move for a week. I inherited those two from my mom and Grandma and I have them worse than I thought. I'm setting here on the bed with a community assistance application for the YMCA. I looked up water exercise classes and I'm seriously considering doing that twice a week. I got to deal with the price of driving the trip 40 minutes each way though. Don't get me wrong. I know its worth the money, but when you need a new bed because springs are popping through, a new bed for your ds, you have a broken window, your skirting is tore up, your microwave gave up the ghost, etc.., a 12 yr old growing out of clothes, and two boys eating in your house, priorities are different. On top of that, their dad isn't paying child support regularly yet. He owes me nearly $5000 in back support and he didn't even pay the full amount for this month. Okay I'm just whining now when I need to be praying. I need some miracles. I will do what I can do and first off that means that I need to eat a dill pickle a day to help my stomach. I need to start eating at home as much as possible and quit eating out. I need to pack a snack for the Avengers movie mom and I are going to see on May 4th. I need to do very light exercise. Moving is moving. I need to clean my treadmill off and start walking even if it is only on 2.5.... I would really love to get a membership for the boys and I this summer though. We'll see what miracles God brings into my life over the next weeks. Thanks for listening and please feel free to throw me some advice. I'll take whatever you want to give me. That's what you're here for
and that's why I'm blogging about this to the spark public
Blessings to all of you this week!