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Sunday, April 29, 2012

Who do I think I'm kidding. I haven't been eating right or exercising for like 2 months. I lost most of my weight the first month I was on here. I've dropped a little bit here and there since, but I could be losing so much more. Several weeks ago I quit measuring, I quit tracking on a daily base for nutrition and fitness, I quit doing strength training, I quit drinking my daily water and I quit looking for healthy options when I went out. Every time I get sick, I don't feel like eating and then I sabotage myself. Also when I'm sick, my kids turn my house upside down and the I get backed up on the kitchen/dishes, counters, and table. When my microwave blew up, it blew my whole routine off. I know excuses excuses. I'll tell you more. When I went to the movies with my kids for the first time in forever, I was like, I deserve this... one day won't hurt me to eat out and have some candy, pop, and popcorn. Then we went to the movies with my mom and dad which we never do. Then mom and I went out for the day which we hadn't done in forever. Then I didn't make anything to eat before I had to be at the sing with nachos and hot dogs on the menu. You see the pattern. I made a few good choices along the way, but my lack of exercise, water, and calorie restraint undid every good choice I made. I'm totally off guys. I keep trying to figure out how to jump start, but my allergy shots have me so tired. Also my arthritis and bursitis are getting worse. Every time I do an exercise with my legs, arms, hands, or hips, I can't hardly move for a week. I inherited those two from my mom and Grandma and I have them worse than I thought. I'm setting here on the bed with a community assistance application for the YMCA. I looked up water exercise classes and I'm seriously considering doing that twice a week. I got to deal with the price of driving the trip 40 minutes each way though. Don't get me wrong. I know its worth the money, but when you need a new bed because springs are popping through, a new bed for your ds, you have a broken window, your skirting is tore up, your microwave gave up the ghost, etc.., a 12 yr old growing out of clothes, and two boys eating in your house, priorities are different. On top of that, their dad isn't paying child support regularly yet. He owes me nearly $5000 in back support and he didn't even pay the full amount for this month. Okay I'm just whining now when I need to be praying. I need some miracles. I will do what I can do and first off that means that I need to eat a dill pickle a day to help my stomach. I need to start eating at home as much as possible and quit eating out. I need to pack a snack for the Avengers movie mom and I are going to see on May 4th. I need to do very light exercise. Moving is moving. I need to clean my treadmill off and start walking even if it is only on 2.5.... I would really love to get a membership for the boys and I this summer though. We'll see what miracles God brings into my life over the next weeks. Thanks for listening and please feel free to throw me some advice. I'll take whatever you want to give me. That's what you're here for emoticon and that's why I'm blogging about this to the spark public emoticon

Blessings to all of you this week!
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    You know what you need to do, so now you just need to do it. The Y sounds great. Water exercises should help with your pain. I know swimming helps with my husband's arthritis. Tracking everything has helped me a lot. I know you will succeed.
    1998 days ago
    Thanks Wonder
    1998 days ago
    I'm sorry you're having such a tough time of it. It stink when you're life gets off track. But the thing is that you're better off then most, as you KNOW that you're off track. You've got somme good ideas too. I know this sounds cliche and all, but just take it one day at a time. Don't dwell on the past and what you've already done. Think about what you can do now to do better and even what you can do in the future to be better. If you have to set up goals and break them down into tiny steps, go for it. If you need support, we're here for you!!!!

    1998 days ago
    Thanks Forbande. I have thought about a yard sale. It takes a lot of planning. I can't sell my treadmill. I wouldn't get enough out of it to be worth it. It is in great shape for our house, but it has a sort of a defect. If the belt in the machine comes loose, it is impossible to get back on. The repairman when I first bought it worked forever trying to get it back on. I never close it either because of that reason. Its worth more in my living room than trying to sale. I want to put my boys in swim lessons for sure. They had some several years back. We decided as a family that we will keep Directv off and start going to the Y instead so that will count for a little of the money involved in driving. I'll keep you posted emoticon
    Thanks for your support! You have been a blessing to me!
    1999 days ago
    Yeah. I know this song. I sing it to myself. A LOT. I deserve to indulge. I deserve a break. This special occasion never happens. I have really tried to change my mindset to the fact that I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to be a good role model. I deserve to be in control of what I can be. When my mind is right, I made much better decisions that benefit me.

    Try for the scholarship for the Y. If your Y is like mine, getting the membership has been great for the family. My boys are currently playing tee ball. Plus I think the water exercise would be sooo great for you! If you don't think you'll use your treadmill, sell it. Do you have have a lot of clothes your boys are growing out of? Sell those.

    Keep praying and moving forward. Even a baby step is one step closer to where you want to be. You CAN and WILL do this!! No doubt about it!

    1999 days ago
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