Sunday, April 29, 2012
After quite a bit of uhming and ahhing I decided to join this Spring Into Shape Bootcamp Challenge after all. I'm feeling a bit... errr, fragile at the moment. I've been in a relationship with the same person for such a long time I learned to define myself through it, especially after getting engaged. Now all that is gone and I'm struggling to let go and to think of myself for once.
I thought this challenge would be good for me, as I'd discovered recently that exercise can actually make me quite happy and I wanted to lose some excess weight for ages. To be quite honest, my weight struggle started with that relationship. I was skinny, but wanted to be skinnier, then kicked all those unhealthy habits like starving myself for days and went straight to the other extreme with late-night binges and comfort eating in front of the TV. It would be great to find some sort of balance again. And furthermore, a bit of a challenge will give me something to focus on instead of dwelling in the past.
I actually got pretty excited about joining yesterday, but woke up this morning feeling a bit weird as usual - I can distract myself during the day, but I can't control what I dream about. The scales showed a bit more than yesterday, but that was to be expected after a massive family breakfast and a barbecue in the afternoon. This is why I NEED to weigh myself daily, as I know now that I need to be more careful for the rest of the week, as opposed to just cheating my way through and getting a bit of a shocker during my next weigh-in.
The workout video really surprised me. The intensity was perfect - I managed to keep up well enough to break a sweat, but without desperately gasping for air at every move. It also showed me that I am quite possibly the most uncoordinated person in the world. Let's just say, I improvised a lot, tried my best and I'm very glad no one was watching. And because it felt like it was over so quickly I did it a total of three times.
Food was okay today. If I was on my own I'd probably be eating pretty much nothing right now, but I'm actually pretty grateful that my parents are looking after me until I get my life sorted out again - even if their idea of looking after someone tends to consist of feeding them lots of fatty foods, haha. At least I know I've burnt it all off and I'm actually quite excited for tomorrow!