Sunday, April 29, 2012
I am sure if you all listen to the radio, you have heard Kelly Clarkson's song "Stronger"?
Well I have come to adopt the phrase "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger" as my mantra the last couple months. It is the first song I play when I start my walk/jog & I actually did find out that after I took that first step, it didn't kill me just makes me stronger! It is so much easier to be able to do what I should be doing for myself & should have probably started a long, long time ago instead of letting insecurities get in the way. Although as I was walking/jogging this morning my thoughts kind of went along the lines of insecurity. I still find myself hiding behind my big bulky sweatshirt (not to mention that it seems to be a lot longer than I remember) & sweat pants thinking "what if some one I know sees me? My DH's friend lives right next to the old football field/track behind my house that I use (because I am afraid to go around the neighborhood) & I find myself wondering if he knows it is me. I am constantly watching to make sure nothing is too jiggly when I jog because I can still hear my mother's words of wisdom in my head (I know, even the music doesn't drown out that voice)! I go out in the early morning when it is still somewhat dark & the town is still some what asleep just so no one knows it is me out there. One day I know I will
So I guess what I am trying to get at is that it hasn't killed me yet so I know I am getting stronger!! That song could not have come out at a better time in my life! Now if only I could just feel a little less insecure about myself I could do just about anything!