I am doing Chalene's Johnson's PUSH program (www.30daypush.com) again this year with a friend (thanks Erin:) I was watching Day 21: An uncomfortable assignment and literally had tears in my eyes. Because an action, probably rather a decision needed done to help me reach my PUSH goal faster and I had been hoping to avoid it.
You see..most people view fitness as a punishment. They dread it. I don't. I feel punished if I can't. I guess for me I don't view it as an obsession or way to lose weight-for me it's my ME time, time to unwind, destress, connect with God, and have a feeling of true accomplishment. Oh sure some days I don't feel like it-I mean come on I am HUMAN!
My soulmate workout is running. I do my best thinking with my running shoes on early in the morning outside in nature. I can't think of a better time of day or activity. Running is a hobby for me and it's just part of who I am.
I am a huge believe into overall wellness-which incorporates all aspects of our health: fitness, nutrition, sleep, stress management, fun time, personal development, faith. So I know that sometimes I have to take rest days or a rest week or take it easy if sick or injured. I find the more I listen to my body the less often I became sick or injured.
I have been plagued with digestive issues (ie Chron's Disease) for a few years now. I remember being terrified last year when we went to Mexico that my stomach would act up while there getting married (I mean can you imagine having this beautiful dress that is fitted and then being so bloated you can't put it on-that was my fear!). I was so lucky to have done a cleanse before we left so I felt amazing most of the time we were there. However, I do remember the day of our reception ( a month later) being afraid to eat again wondering if my stomach would blow up (it did). I look back now at pictures of that day and you can tell my face was just swollen (most people can't tell but I can). No one should have to live like that.
I decided after last year that I had enough. I wanted to find some way to heal myself without any use of meds-as up to this point the doctors had no answers for me.
I stumbled across the SCD plan a few months ago and began to experiment. I am now on Day 36 of the full plan-it's basically a plan whereby you eat a base set of foods that are "legal" (mainly they are unprocessed and easiest to digest!) and add new foods every 4 days to see how your body reacts. You also take supplements and as this is all going on your body is healing so that in the end you can live a more normal life.
It has been the most mentally and physically exhausting thing I have ever endured. It has put my faith to the test more times than you can imagine. But...I am healing and getting better!
The one thing I didn't bargain for was the fatigue. Your body is basically detoxing and healing all at the same time-which takes an immense amount of energy. I can tell if I even try to do any sort of vigorous workout (ie running!) that my body gets inflamed and I have a setback. I've talked to fellow SCD'ers and they all say the same thing-the fatigue for the first few months is normal.
Which brings me to the decision I had to make. I haven't really ran or anything of the such for almost 2 weeks now and I kept telling myself that oh next week I'll be FINE. Back to business as usual. I finally had to tell myself yesterday that I am just going to have to put up my running shoes for a few months perhaps and let my body heal.
You'd think a decision like that would be easy but it wasn't. It's like giving up part of ME. But I know in the end it has to be done and I am able to focus on other lighter activities (yoga, light weights, eventually lighter cardio) , stress management, sleep, my faith, and getting this body healed once and for all.
So for now my main focus is yoga and I'll also work in the Turbo FIRE/ChaLEAN hybrid schedule as my body allows. Each week I'll see how my body is feeling and adjust accordingly.
To my fellow runners-run an extra mile for me this week. I cry every time I see someone out running...but know in my heart that when I do get to lace my running shoes on again-I'll be one force to be reckoned with!
Pics from this mornings progress assessment (I've lost over 10 pounds of inflammation since I started SCD!).