Sunday, April 29, 2012
So far I feel like things are going pretty good overall. I have worked out 6 of 7 days in my first week. I am going to try to work out 5-6 times a week for sure. I am afraid that if I tell myself I have to work out 7 days a week I will get burnt out and stop. I feel super motivated right now and feel like nothing will derail me this time. If only I can keep this feeling for the next year, lol. I have not weighed myself yet and have been fighting myself not to. I really do not want to be a slave to the scale because I need a lifestyle change not just a smaller number on the scale. I am hoping that the smaller number on the scale will be a residual effect to the positive lifestyle changes I am trying to make. I got a little frustrated today because I tried on a pair of pants that I thought would fit because I wore them a few weeks ago, before Easter (which ended up being a small derailment to my progress I had started in mid-january, before joining SP). Apparently the before mentioned "small derailment" was a little bigger than I had thought
. The pants "fit" but were not attractive. That was a little disheartening because I felt like I was doing so good and really thought they would fit fine. So, after that, I really talked myself into NOT weighing bacause if I don't see some sort of a loss when I do weigh for the first time I will literally cry!!!! I want to weigh because I am anxious to see my tracker move but I don't want to take a chance of being super disappointed, which could cause a derailment. I know it seems like on here weekly weigh ins are encouraged, and I know from "dieting" in the past that you see a big 1st week loss but I don't think I want to chance it. The question in my head is "How long should I wait?" Should it be til I see a change in my body. Should it be a time line? Just when I can't fight the temptation anymore? I have decided, however, that when I get to 254 I am rewarding myself with a new pair of tennis shoes!! I'm love shoes! In the past, I feel like I would have celebrated by going out to eat with a friend. I feel like I have had a total mindset reset.
I hope that is truly the case. I THINK I can, I THINK I can, I THINK I can....