Finally, I can see it!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
I had a great loss this week (3 pounds), despite the Sunday and Tuesday "overages" that occurred. I am so amazed at how quickly my body just wants this excess fat GONE. Everything is falling into place beautifully. I am feeding my body right, treating my body right and respecting it - and it is repaying me tenfold. Thank you for the cooperation, self
I honestly never knew it could be so easy. I struggled in the past. Not to say I don't have my occasional struggle now - because I certainly do. I feel like I just handle the struggles differently. With dignity and grace...humility. I realize I am human. And I trust myself to always jump right back on the wagon - I know I always will when I fall. There was always such uncertainty and fear in the past. Guilt...Oh, the guilt was heavy. I am learning now that it is okay to eat that piece of chocolate....or like tonight, that possibly-bigger-than-average slice of Strawberry Rhubarb pie. Who cares? What does it really matter in the long run? Nothing. I am in this for the long haul and I am going to enjoy it for what it's worth and not turn this into some kind of struggle and miserable battle because it certainly isn't! I got this
I was looking at my body in the shower a few nights ago....I started noticing the "little things" that are changing. Funny things. Things I never even put thought to. Like the little crease where my foot and ankle meet - it is no longer there. My ankle flows smoothly into my foot with no fat fold interruption. My hips flow smoothly into my upper thigh (*almost*
) The little fat roll under my chest....Almost gone. I can fit my fingers around my wrist with room to spare again.
It's so nice to be able to see the changes now. I just couldn't before. I've lost 50 pounds, and though people gasped at my appearance (in delight, lol) I couldn't see any changes. It was so disheartening. The tape measure showed it; the scale did too. But I looked in the mirror and saw the same 'ol fat rolls and lumps and bumps that have been with me since I was entering puberty ages ago. Not that one night in the shower, no....I finally got a glimpse...a glimmer of hope....that things are changing. And it is a WONDERFUL feeling!
And with that, I bit you all a goodnight!