I have been on this ride for maybe my whole life. I was one of those "husky" kids who grew into a "good sized" teenager to a now morbidly obese adult. I have tried every diet under the sun and even had temporary successes. I figure I have lost something like 1000 pounds in my lifetime. However I have never kept the weight off for very long periods of time.
When I turned back to Spark this past fall I truthfully didn't expect to be where I am right now. I thought for sure I'd be about 50 pounds lighter and an avid jogger/runner. In reality, I'm 12 pounds lighter and a walker and stationary biker.
Am I upset or disappointed by this? Nope. There are days (and there were those "funk" weeks) where I beat myself up a bit but never felt failure. Instead I feel like I've accomplished so much mentally and emotionally that I can lose the weight and keep it off FOREVER.
I've learned that I can live life now not when the weight comes off. I've learned that I have the tools, support and friends to make this a lifelong success. I feel like I'm not alone. I feel like there is hope and light at the end of the tunnel. I am FINALLY accepting that I am WORTH it and DESERVE it.
That last one has been the hardest. And believe me, I'm not always 100% convinced of it but I'm always at least 75% convinced. And that's sooo much better than the 5% I've been for way too long.
Since this is my journey (Thanks to Megan1724's blog: www.sparkpeople.com/mypa
), I realize that I'm driving this ride and I can let it be as long or short, hard or easy as I want it to be. I can choose to wander aimlessly or I can focus on my destination. I can go it alone or have one heck of a road trip. It's up to me! What freedom and control I have!
For the longest time I have felt out-of-control and stranded. I don't feel that way any longer. I feel like I know where I'm going and how I'm going to get there. I have zero doubts that I'll get there. Yeah. I will get lost and run out of gas but I know how to reprogram my internal GPS and know how to refuel to keep on going.
I think we all have to "get prepared" for this ride to be successful for the long run. And that may mean different things to each of us. For me it has meant "getting my mind and heart right". And this has been the most difficult but most important part.
Remember that it's not only okay but required that you "get prepared". So if you are feeling defeated because the scale isn't budging or you are not doing everything you "should" - enjoy and celebrate the wonderful strides you are making in fool-proofing your ride. In the end, this is YOUR ride. Do it YOUR way.
(PS - I will apologize for the bad analogies. When I sat down to type this I was completely heading in a different direction but this is what came out. I guess this what I needed to share.)