Exciting and scary things on the horizon
Friday, April 27, 2012
It’s been a little over a week since I last blogged and it has been a busy and positive week.
As many of you know, I had my work hours significantly cut last summer and have been looking for another part-time or full-time job. It has been frustrating to say the least. I see a job posting and know I could do the job well and would be an asset to the company only to get the “Thank you for your interest” letter or email. I have gone on a few interviews yet nothing has panned out.
Last Tuesday I had a first interview at a branch of the University of Minnesota’s research and outreach center for an office support assistant position. The interview was with three women, one who would be my immediate supervisor. It went well and I left feeling positive about my chances. On Friday I received a call requesting I come back to interview with the department head, the supervisor and take a tour of the facility. Again, all went well and I became more optimistic. Yesterday I received another call and will going back at 2 p.m. today. Not quite sure what to expect but am being positive about being offered the job, while at the same time trying not to get my hopes too high – this is a state job and I know there can be many hoops to jump through during the hiring process. I would love to get the job – it would be something a little out of the box for me while still being somewhat similar. It would be a 32-hour week with full benefits and would allow for me to still work for the company I currently work for. My current employers have been so wonderful to me and I know it would be difficult to train someone to replace me in so few hours a week.
Another exciting and scary part of my life has to do with a man I met online. If you have followed my blogs, you know how apprehensive I have been about entering the online dating scene. I bit the bullet once, it didn’t turn out well and I decided to get out of that scene and maybe revisit at another time. Then I heard about another site and just had a feeling that I should check it out. I heard from some men and corresponded with a few of them with no connection. Then one popped up that for some reason really caught my attention. I hesitated about replying because I thought he was “too beautiful” for someone like me but something kept pulling at me to respond. We have been communicating for almost a month now and plan to meet in person soon. Excited and nervous? You bet I am. Will keep you posted.
I never really was one to embrace change and liked living a more controlled life. Leaving my marriage and buying a house a little over three years ago took many years of contemplation before I finally realized it was what I had to do. Since then I pretty much lived happily in my own little corner of the world; and then when my hours were cut I quickly learned how little control we have over many aspects of our lives.
Taking these new steps has caused a lot of stress but has also been oddly exciting – I am looking forward to experiencing new things and stepping out of my little world.
I credit Spark People and my amazing friends here, as well as some awesome friends who have been in my life for a long time. All have helped give me the confidence I need to step out there and attempt to grab life by the horns even though there is a chance I may get banged up a bit. Happiness and fulfillment is worth the risk. I can’t find it if I stay in a cocoon and this butterfly is ready to take off.
Note: It's ironic that as I was about to post this blog the song "Man in the Mirror" by Michael Jackson came on the radio. Last fall I wrote about how this song made me realize that changing my life had to begin with me. How appropriate - thanks Michael.