Friday, April 27, 2012
So my dentist this week asked me if I have OCD tendencies because he thinks I am doing too good of a job taking care of my teeth. I immediately thought "No way! I wish my house and my car was way cleaner than it was!" But after thinking about it, I realize there are many different areas in your life that you can obsess about things. Trivializing a life altering disorder into being clean or not was a pretty flippant thought in response to an innocent question from my dentist!
I'm not a fan of making self diagnoses so I'm not claiming that I'm OCD now - but I do think there are areas in my life I need to take a chill pill. The biggest right now is my eating habits. I feel like I'm overthinking things. It's hard to be a dietitian and not think about food and nutrition all day long! My last blog is proof - I'm getting really wrapped up in feeling bad about having sweets. I weighed in today and I'm still at my goal. Obviously I'm not overdoing it to the point of putting any weight back on.
I spent a good five minutes messing with my calorie range and trying to decide where to leave it and what strategy to use - I actually meant for this blog to be about that! And then I thought to myself "hey Whackadoodle, no one wants to read about your calorie range! Just eat what you want and see how it goes!"
I am going on a cruise in June that I am really looking forward to. But I keep thinking about needing to set aside time to make a "plan" for my eating and exercise while I'm there. There is such a fine line between leading a healthy lifestly and obsessing about one. I think I am going to resist the urge of planning out specific goals. I'm just going to stick with the obvious stuff like not eating past the feeling of fullness and only eating what I love. And I am looking forward to taking advantage of fun fitness opportunities there too.
I remember thinking about what maintenance would be like when I was still losing. I read that some people thinks it's harder. It's not necessarily harder, It's different. I would say it is harder emotionally, but a little easier nutrition and fitness-wise. But then that makes it even harder emotionally! It's hard to trust that you won't put the weight back on. And all this right here is proof!
I have seen a lot of discussion about whether maintainers need to keep tracking their food. Maybe a trial of not tracking my food would work well to help me reduce my obsessing about it? But then I immediately get scared that I'll mess it up! I should trust myself to give it a shot.
Ay yi yi! Any other maintainers go through this before?