So, after accepting that I've just been horrible to myself in the last year's self-destructive habits and lack of healthy ways and going on walking, doing yoga and eating well at the paren'ts house for Daddy's newfound studies of heart healthy habits The scale said yesterday that I'd lost 3 pounds! When I sat down today to track it I noticed at some point when I'd updated my weight I"d actually changed my "before" weight accidentally instead of my current updated weight! My little weight tracker thing now says I've lost 44 pounds since I started which is what I figured I"d kept off for the last 3 years. ~big releived sigh~ Thanks for all the msgs, comments and e-mails of support and love everyone when I thought I'd gained back almost all the weight I'd lost! You guys all rock!!