Thursday, April 26, 2012
I've never had a large group of friends because I hate the politics of groups but my 2 best friends moved away and my ex took our close friends when we broke up so I've found myself alone a lot lately. I like being alone but it is difficult to bear when there is no other option.
I also know that I am alone because I am not a happy fat person. In the movies, the fat girl is the funny one, the smartass who everyone likes to be around but that just isn't me. Being fat hasn't inspired me to be hilarious or the life of the party - it has forced me to retreat into myself. I find that most people don't really like me because being fat has made me mean and miserable.
I don't want to be mean and miserable! It is time for a change and I'll have to find the strength to get there for me and on my own.