Wednesday, April 25, 2012
I missed you! So I'm back...I am now up 24lbs (down 2 this week!) from my lowest weight last summer (136). I weighed in at 162 on Monday and pretty much cried and ranted and raved and then realized that my husband hadn't even gotten out of bed yet and was probably not awake enough to cope :) As usual he is very supportive of this attempt to lose weight. Part of my motivation is clothing--none of mine fits. I'm embarrassed by my larger body and my too tight clothes and my drawers full of pants that are two sizes too small. I'm also embarrassed by my eating habits. I've been a "closet eater" (my mom's phrase) since I was a kid. That's just another way of saying binge eater. Over the last few months that has meant binging on burritos and icecream, chips (my nemesis!) and diet soda. So I'm cutting back and tracking every bite I eat.
I'm slowly giving up diet soda (and regular soda) and cutting back on sugar, chips, processed food and cheese. Those are all trigger foods for me. I'm also trying to get back to being a vegetarian (5 days so far!) for personal reasons and want to make it a healthier journey than the last time. My "plan" is to try and eat fruits or veg at every meal, incorporate more exercise into my usual activities (i.e. parking at the far end of the parking lot, gardening more and dancing to music while sitting at my desk) and cut back (or cut out) the foods listed above. I'm also trying to cook a lot more from scratch and have been making homemade bread all this week. We have company visiting this weekend (who have all requested my 'famous' vegetarian burritos) and the weekend will include cake, so I am going to make sure that it also includes veggies and fruit and no soda and that I track EVERYTHING.
I don't have a timeline to my goals yet. I really want to get back into my smallest pants (size 6 J Crew) but I know that won't happen before I visit my family. I am flying back home over Memorial Day and I am currently 16lbs heavier than the last time they saw me--I don't want that to be the case when I make the trip! Especially since I have a LOT of cute pants and dresses that I bought and wore once because I gained weight so quickly.
Okay, so not such a quick entry, more a stream-of-consciousness entry :)