Wednesday, April 25, 2012
I usual revel in being female -- cuter shoes, lipstick, I can cry in public without being shamed -- but man oh man, it's not fun this month. My hormones must be in an uproar - I've had a migraine for about three days, and vicious cramps for the last two.
Naturally, I feel very sorry for myself, and yesterday used this as an excuse to eat certain things that are not clean. I kind of want to do the same thing today, but there's this quote that keeps rolling around in my head:
IF YOU ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU ALWAYS DID, YOU'LL ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU'VE ALWAYS GOTTEN.
If I stuff my face with junk food because I'm uncomfortable and whiny, I will remain the weight I'm currently weighing. If I find a NON-FOOD WAY to soothe myself, I will get a DIFFERENT outcome, I will lose weight and get in to the 230s, which I haven't seen in years.
I want a different outcome. I want smaller pants. I want mastery over my cravings and I want to make my Frolicking Summer Goddess goal in Inside Out Beauty Day. I got close to my Earth Day goal, but didn't hit it, because frankly, I was doing what I always did.
Not this time, sucka! (talking to my cramps/headache/general malaise) There's a new sheriff in town who came riding in on a tiger.
So for today, I'm going to have a Gala apple and a cup of Red Zinger and I'm going to thoroughly enjoy it.
I've also got that complimentary personal training session tonight at the gym that won't let me quit. I was tempted to quit because I'm achy and cranky, but I know in advance that I will feel better and more positive after working out. She's a woman so I'll give her a heads up to go a little easy on me and I'll give myself a Hello Kitty sticker on my calendar for working out and a special star for doing it even though I really don't feel like it.