Voodoo doll, I'm convinced someone has one of me
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
My thyroid cancer is more than enough for me to be currently dealing with. I've had my surgeries & recovery time, been off my thyroid hormones, and as of yesterday's blood test I am now ready to proceed. My TSH had to be >30 and yesterday it was 51. The nurse told me last week that if my numbers were right then I'd get the low dose RAI on Friday and my body scan on Monday. She never scheduled it. Now the low dose is Monday and the scan is Thursday, May 3. It's only a few day difference, but the longer I wait the more hypothyroid I become and I'm not liking the tiredness, slowness, and brain fog that's developing. The longer I'm hypo the worse it's going to get.
As for the voodoo doll, I'm seriously convinced someone has one of me and is not being nice with it. On my birthday/Easter, I believe the doll was tossed down the steps as I fell down my basement stairs due to my son leaving his shoes on the top step. He never does that. My tailbone is severely bruised on the inside. It's been more than 2 weeks and it still hurts, not as much as the first week, but it hurts to sit.
Next mean trick to the doll was for someone to shove in some stones in the kidney area. I went to the ER and was admitted on Saturday. I have a 6mm stone that may or may not pass on its own. I was given odds of 70% originally that it will pass but now the dr says it's only 30-40%. I cannot find a urologist that takes our insurance so this is going to end up all out of pocket. At least he offers a 50% discount, but that still doesn't help a whole lot because my husband is unemployed and having a hell of a time getting any call for interviews. If this stone won't pass on its own, I'll have to go under general anesthesia to get a stent put in and either the stone smashed or else retrieved with a basket like tool, depending on where in my body it's located. You know that won't be cheap.
Finally, this started Sunday night, I'm getting random sharp pains in my left breast as if someone is shoving a knife in. After the sharp pain subsides I'm left with a burning feeling for a while. I called my gyn and she said that can be normal and to get a mammogram. Excuse me, but how can a knife stabbing-like pain anywhere in the body be normal?!! Stop stabbing my voodoo doll!
This is getting to be overwhelming. The thyroid cancer is more than enough and then I get lucky to have these other thing happening at the time I'm preparing for treatment and will end up radioactive. At that time no doctors will even be able to come near me to treat me so I hope I can get these other conditions under control before then. Until that time comes, can I just crawl into a hole and hide somewhere?