Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Going backwards but not giving up. What a struggle I am having. I need to get back into a fitness routine, and in the habit of logging my food. Every frickin' bite. And another thing, I need to get this negativity out of my head.
Food does not make me feel better, it makes me feel worse.
It's all coming back. Grazing. Afternoon binges. My pants are tight. I can't get out of my own way to get out of the house to exercise. I have things IN the house to exercise and cannot even get myself to doing that.
Bootcamp was like a religion for me. I haven't been in three weeks. Negative self-talk is in full swing.
I've struggled, but never this badly. I let sugar cravings win the best of me. I always managed to exercise. I need to break the cycle.
Has anyone been through this that can offer some advice? I know I can do this, I've done it before. I WILL NOT GAIN ALL THE WEIGHT BACK. I WILL NOT GAIN ALL THE WEIGHT BACK.
Part of the problem is that the weight loss obsession is over. My honeymoon with being in a size 10 is over. The thought of logging my food feels like a chore. It should still be a routine. Perhaps because I let myself get out of the routine. Maybe that's what I need to build up my routine again.
I ran a 5K with my husband and did horribly. Instead of celebrating it as a success I beat myself up over having to walk and finishing in 45 minutes. (it is 3.45 miles)
Plan of Action:
Get into an exercise schedule and stick to it.
Log EVERY bite!
Positive Self Talk!!!
Ok, it's only three things. I can do this! I can do this! I can do this!