Tuesday, April 24, 2012
I titled this post "Day 114", but it's really not. I haven't done anything good for myself in the past 30 days. Instead, it seems that I'm eating more and more, and I can't stop.
I gave up sugar for a week or so and lost 5 lbs rapidly. Then I went back to eating whatever, and I put it all back on plus.
I am SO TIRED of this fight.
I know I'm the only one who can change my life. I only wish I knew why I continue to make poor decisions and treat my body like a garbage can.
That's all I have in me tonight. I'm just tired of fighting and tired of despising myself because I'm so weak.